Have you seen my passion?

Hi Guys,

How's everyone doing? Its the weekend again! Its funny how some of us get so excited its the weekend, like we have huge plans when in reality...we don't...lol. It jst feels good to be able to sleep in late, have breakfast in bed (tho u have to get up to put it together), listen to Vera's show, and generally just do you. So yeah, I am glad its the weekend.

In addition to it being weekend, I am on Spring Break so yay me! I sometimes wonder where my adventurous and fun side went to. My whole college life I have never done anything fun and exciting with my breaks; spring break, winter break, watever break...*sigh* nothing! People go to Miami, Mexico, Puerto Rico, London, Paris...my behind stays indoors. The annoying part is I do love to go out (for the most part), but I seem to have surrounded myself with boring people. I love my friends, dnt get me wrong, but I think I need to make more out-going (not necessarily wild sha o) and adventurous friends.

I wanna go on a road trip! To anywhere, Miami ain't a bad idea. My friends wanted to do a roadtrip to Canada but that plan never solidified cos of scheduling issues. London nko...no money. *sigh* Even exploring some really cool spots in NYC won't be a bad idea...I need me some oyinbo, and ching- chong friends ASAP. They are open to trying out things and dnt have drama...lol.

In other news, everyone seems to be getting married left, right and centre. I can't even begin to count how many babes from my set have gotten and are getting married...the thing tire me o. Was talking about it with friends the other day and I personally have nothing against it. When I see pics up on FB or the like I usually say Congrats and wish them well, bcos to me I feel that's all we can do as friends, wish them well. Its ok if some of us think its too early and we haven't gotten both feet strong enough on the ground to uphold a family and the responsibilities both financial and emotional, but if a friend (someone u knw) has decided they are ready to tke the plunge, then so be it. My friend disagrees...lol...she said she can't bring herself to drop congratulatory comments. The part that cracks me up, is when ppl leave comments but dnt knw how to hide the skepticism/surprise....I mean just say congrats and put full stop, not "Babe u r getting married? ehen na wa oo. Congrats" or "Congratulations oooo" or " Are you for real? I wish you well sha"....as in which one is the ooooooo and sha inside?lol.

It seems like everyone is finding their passion or calling, and I can't help but wonder, where is mine? People have photography, make-up artist, writer, cooking/baking and other interesting things...I have nothing, or at least that's how I feel :(. I know someone will say when you where younger what did you want to be? I used to say a Lawyer cos I talked ALOT and my nick-name was 'radio without wire", meaning I cld go on on. But I always wanted to be an actress (still do), but everytime I said it ppl looked at me like yeah right u jst dnt wanna work, keep living in fantasyland...so I let that dream go after taking two acting classes in college.

I just want to find something I'm passionate about...I know its a wonderful feeling doing something you love, not necessarily as a full-time job, but just the realization that this is part of what you were put on earth to do and you enjoy it. I want that feeling. *sigh* So my dear blogville famille...share with a sister, have you found your passion or calling? What is it? And how does it feel?

Have a fabulous weekend guys...and if anyone is in NYC and wants to just hang-out holla @ me.

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!!!

You're Hired!!!!!

Hello Blogsville,

How's everyone doing? Hope the weekend was fun, peaceful and all u wanted it to be. I had so much school work to do over the weekend, but I didn't achieve much at all...no motivation. Oh well.

Ok so I have small good news for u guys...ur prayers worked!!! I got offered a small gig last week, as a Marketing Intern @ a company that provides software for distance and blended learning; if you use BlackBoard at ur school, you might notice a program on it called Pronto, yeah dats part of their work. I'm so excited...this is like my first internship in my field/major. Still looking for something for the summer...cos this is temp. for now. Thanks for ur prayers!!!!

Spring is here!!!!!! Woohoo!!!So last week we had 60 degrees weather, and the sun was out! Now, it back to dreary, cloudy, foggy weather but its not winter cold so I dnt hve to layer up, so I'm grateful for that sha. Its time to take out this weave/braids and let my hair breathe...its funny how when u think its time to take out ur weave, braids or wateva extensions u begin to get mre n' mre compliments on the hair...lol...and it mkes u kip shifting (9ja lingo) d deadline, b4 u knw it u'll hve wat luks lyk an old mop on ur head. Lol...dat's wat has been happening o...everytime I say i wanna tke d damn thing out, I get compliments n' I'm like hmmm ok 2mre days, 3mre days...lol.

U know that phrase...about the grass being greener on the other side? Ermm, Iono bout dat oo...lol. I remember late '08 I had jst broken up wiv my then boyfrnd, and on hand I was going thru all the whirlwind of emotions that come with ending a 3yr relationship, but I was sorta kinda excited to be single. Felt like I had been trapped, and now I cld be free and jst do me o jare...and enjoy single life...lol. Long story short, ermm I thot single life was easier than being in a relationship, but I beg to differ now oo. The dating process can be fun, but juggling the guys is work sometimes jo..especially when u r jst tryna hve a gudtime and the guys begin to catch feelings, get attached and want to claim ownership...wahala dey. Ermmm b4 y'all get it twisted I'm nt d one in dis situation o...lol...I am no longer on d market, its my recently single friend dats experiencing this.

I'm sooo excited...Dancing With The Stars is baacck.!!! I luv luv luv the show...Derek Hough is a hottie...damn n Maksim is sizzling too. But I jst watched Chad Ocho Cinco dance and dere's smething there...d dude is...I dnt knw wat it is but I like....lol. Meanwhile these judges r funny...lol...Bruno jst said Shannon Doherty was swinging her hands like a primate...lwkmd!!!!

I'm off to continue watching o jare...lol...I love u guys bunchesssss....really do.

Talk to you soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!!!

I'm in Love + Update

Hello Blogsville,

How's everybody doing? Hpe great. Everytime I log on to try and update, by the time I'm done reading all ur posts I forget what exactly I had in mind to blog about...lol. Neways, today I decided to just drop one or two lines regardless of my lack of blogging topic.

First off to all the commenters on my last post "Butterflies", hmmm well what can I say; I am in love, and it feels good. So y'all should allow my lil' spontaneous acts that scream "hopelessly in love" "romantic" and all that mushy stuff :-) I'm just happy in every sense of the word...and I'm thankful. Ok enuff b4 I bore u with mushy mush!lol

So remember I mentioned I was on the search for summer internships, well initially I was freaking out that no one was calling me back either to schedule interviews or even reject me gan sef. My people, in the past 2weeks, I've been on like 4 interviews!!! Please help me praise God biko...I'm not kidding oh...tell Baba God thank u on my behalf pls. So now its to wait for the application deadlines, then they'll start calling up people with offers, and I am believing in God to finish what He has started. Pls continue to put me in ur prayers o, even if its a one-liner Baba God hears everything.

I was in MD 2weeks ago for my friend's 21st, and we had a blaaaassst. We went to Lux on Friday, and one sketchy Mango Lounge (M Lounge) on Saturday. As sketchy as the M Lounge was with some African Papas n' Mamas in leopard print outfits n suits...lol...the DJ was on pointtttt! The dude killed it yo'....mixing correct Naija jams wiv regular club jams. We had a realll gud time. And no I ddn't get wasted, just happy enuff to not go overboard. :-)

One the other hand Wande Coal n' Mo'Hits crew were in town (NY) last weekend, but thanks to the wicked brutal rainstorm and assignments, coupled with the fact that I am on a budget, I cldn't make it. I heard it rocked tho'...ddn't expect less from the crew sha. Wish I was there :-(

So in other news, according to the weather forecast, it is gonna be a wonderful week weather wise. We are talking freaking 60 degrees weather. Woohoo!!!! I am tired of wearing coats and layers...as if I am not petite enough, to now be weighed down by layers of clothes and heavy jackets...who knws maybe that's what affected my vertical growth sef...lol.

Speaking of vertical growth, its funny how people seem to think that I might be bothered bout my height. But erm sorry to disappoint u o but I love it. It cmes in very handy. When I board the plane, ppl r always so anxious to help me put my luggage in the over head compactment. When I'm checking in, I jst stand there and bat my eyelashes and b4 I knw it, my two-three huge suitcases have been lifted for me and checked in with ease. The other day I'm @ an interview and they ask me wat I wld like to change about myself, and I am like ermm...nothing rili. The lady was like oh bcos I once interviewed someone who wished he was taller. Me I was like, I dnt wish I was taller, ppl always use their Panadol for my own headache by telling me to always wear high-heels; but I disagree with them...I wear high-heels when the event calls for it, besides that I wear my lovely, colorful, comfortable flats so I can move comfortable without pain written all over my face from wearing heels all day. (well I ddn't use those exact words sha oo..lol..)

Neways my darlings ur one and only has got to run. I have a class in 15mins, and I need to print some ish out first. Love y'all like guys love their foot-ball teams.

PS: I'm an Arsenal fan by boyfriend...lol...the dedication and loyalty that My Babie has to this team ehn, chei! Its interesting to watch sha...lol...love u babie!!!!!

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!!!

...Butterflies

A wide smile across my face,

Eyes that twinkle with excitement,

A stomach filled with butterflies,

A heart overflowing wiv love;

This is what you do to me

And for these and many more

I love you.

...Undercover07

Mini-Vacation: Randoms

Hello Blogsville,

Hws everyone doing? Hpe y'all made the best of ur weekend.
I missed Vera's show on saturday :(, my apologies to my chat-room buddies...pls fill me in on wat I missed, any interesting callers and comments.

My friend was in town for a job interview, and the coy, put her up in a hotel so I went to spend d nite wiv her...and thanks to the snow storm, one night turned into three...lol. So we were on a mini-vacation in mid-town New York. After our stay, I hve vowed to invest in a good mattress when am ready to get my own place...chei...all my body pains were gone after the first night...lol.

Please somebody tell winter that we've had enough biko. Haba! Can we have some lil' sunshine pls. Mnwhyl, I hear the sun is roasting ppl in Naij. The heat is dt country odikwa dangerous sha oo...as in...its like...ouch...ppl r burning up. Even those dt go grm AC hse to AC car to AC jobs dey complain, not to talk of those wivout AC. I dnt knw hw those market women, street hawkers and homeless ppl do it mehn...especially the children. Lord help dem.

It's my friend B's birthday next weekend, so we're all headed to MD. Looking forward to unwinding, and having a good time. Meanwhile I hear Wande Coal is gonna be in town the upper weekend; not sure if I'm gonna go yet. Babes r broke!!! I hate being broke, but hey every phase in life teaches us something, and I'm learning hw to live on no income...and jst believing dt He'll work something out soon. Been sending out apps. like no man's business. God dey o.

Pls has anyone seen the Toyota Sienna ad whr the oyinbo family call their mini-van a "Swagger- Wagon"...lol...I think its funny. I knw d word swagger has been abused n' misused, but its jst funny to see oyinbo man n' woman using it...lol. While we're on dat swag tip, Kobe Bryant is a fine man sha ooo...ahn ahn. Dude is on d March edition of GQ, and am watchn a Lakers game, and I'm like....dayuum!!! the way he chews gum while on d court is kinda u knw *wink*...lol...well u get my drift ryt? ryt.

Quick question oo, why do the players hve to shake/tap each other during free throws? Isn't it time wasting? #justasking

The things dat a suit can do to a man...take a guy from anywhere, put him in a nicely tailored suit, clean him up, a nice hair-cut n' all, on point cuff-links and shoes...then spray some cologne on him...the kind dat mkes u wanna wear his shirt in bed...and the dude is good to go! The wonders of a suit. I love when a man can wear a suit, not the suit wearing the man...na mean? it helps when the guy isn't bursting out of d suit sha ooo...lol...but I'm a sucker for a man in a good looking suit.

Aiight guys...dats about it for now. Hopefully if my week isn't crazy I'll stop by and put up a post, if not knw dat I luv u guys bunches. And I'm happy my last post was helpful/meaningful to a few ppl, and it met them at a time dey needed it. It meant alot to me, to be of some help.

Have a fabulousssss week guys, and remember to be THANKFUL, and PRAYERFUL.

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

...Thank You Lord!...

...It is sad that it sometimes takes seeing someone else in a worse condition before we appreciate what we have. That being said, I'm just as guilty so I do not judge...who am I to.

The past two weeks have been heavy for me, but today I realize its been so because I made it so...I let myself create burden where there wasn't any; the issues are there, but its like I keep saying take control Father, but in reality I'm not giving Him room to actually take control.*sigh* I'm saying take the wheel, but I'm not letting Him drive. I keep stressing and worrying over tomorrow, what will happen, I need this I need that, why isn't it working for me like it is for others... I have forgotten to say Thank You for my daily bread, thank you for the little things... So today, I'm saying:

Thank you for the gift of life, some people didn't mke it to today but here I am. Walking. Talking. Healthy. I can see, I can think...

Thank you for my family, for the trying times that u've gotten us through. That at the end of the day, we still have one another to be there for each other. The unconditional love that binds us is a reflection of ur undying love towards us.

Thank you for my relationship. For giving him patience and wisdom to be the man that he is. Bless the work of his hands Father, and continue to guide us and order our steps according to ur word, and continue to be the rock on which we stand.

Thank you for my school work. It is not by my power Lord, but ur unmerited favor that continues to find me. Thank you. Help me to be the best I can be.

Thank you for my job. U gave it to me and now that it has come to an end, you will again bring to me what is mine. Thank you for my internship search, continue to do ur thing Father.

Thank you for my friends. For their understanding, love, laughter I bless u Lord. Never leave them or forsake them Daddy, may they have the Holy Spirit to guide them always.

Thank you Lord! Thank you Lord! Thank you Lord! My heart and my soul say thank you. For all you've done and what you continue to do. Thank you. I am sorry for all the time I have been selfish, that I have been unappreciative, for getting mad unnecessarily, for losing focus of the blessings that u have sent my way...I am sorry. Thank you for not forsaking me...Thank you.

Thank you Lord!

NB: We always get caught up in the rush of the world and life itself, but when we can we should say Thank You. Its never too late...NEVER. Hope everyone had a fabulous and a blessed weekend! Love you guys much!

Talk to you soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!!!

...I'm so DONE!!! (Rant Alert)

I'm done...so DONE. Ki lo de? Is it a crime to be nice? And why can't nice gestures be reciprocated...come on now. I'm not allergic to niceties, neither am I incapable of accepting nice gestures.
I wasn't christened a mumu @ birth...hell no! But out of the goodness of my heart I go the extra mile for u, it wld be really nice if u keep up ur end of deal. Like wat da fudge? Why do friends and ppl we hold dear have to screw us over and tke things for granted??? Why???
My new year resolution last year was to learn to say NO, but apparently I haven't learnt how...and more than ever I'm regretting why I haven't learnt how to. Cos in d end I'm the one who gets screwed over and is stuck wiv the annoying mix of emotions as I am now. Argggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! Why me...why me! patch patch pacth...lol...forever patching. Using my phensic for other people's head-ache...who is using theirs on mine now? NO ONE.
Well...we live to learn abi how does dat line go. I can't change the past...but from here on I'm done with BS, can't deal wiv it anymre neither can I settle for less. I'm picking myself up and doing the best I can, y'all better do same cos I ain't picking nobody up nemre. And I'm damn right gonna say NO when I wanna and if u dnt like it, well kiss my lil' behind cos I dnt care...I'm done caring what the world thinks....how about what I think. Mschewwwww!!!!!!
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Hi Guys,

How's everyone doing today? :) So I listened in on Vera's radioshow, and boy did I have good time. I called in too!!! And I made a new friend Ms.O!!!!! Been tidying up our apt. and I'm tired! This America that everyone is claiming to be going-green, pls they shd start by not sending people unnecessary stuff in the damn mail! Everyday something comes in that I dnt need, its like the apt. is almost drowning in papers. All these companies killin d poor trees and yet they'll say dey r eco-friendly this n' that, my friend lemme hear word jo.

Meanwhile, I have a whole stack of magazines and I dnt knw wat to do with them o! All these mags dat mke someone want to thief...abeg dat 1million dt Vera was tlkn bout if I see it now ehn, the life of my ward-robe will never be the same again...chei. It sucks to be broke and not have any income watsoever. My brokeness/ anger towards some people is d reason for the above rant...lol...so bear with me. Funny hw u remember ur debtors wen u're broke and its like wat da fudge? shame no dey catch u to return my money? Abi u think say I no get wetin i wan tke am do. And then I'm jst tired of doing for ppl and putting everyone first b4 me. Y'all knw dat feeling.

So Vals day is tomorrow...and in as much as I normally dnt do anything, I usually am in good or high spirits. But I dnt feel dt way right nw at all...my mood is shitty n' it stinks bcos I shake it off and I tke it out whoever comes my way. I wish I enjoyed cooking, this will be a nice time to just cook to tke my mind off things or better yet, bake something. I'm looking 4ward to first wknd in March, its my girls b'day so we're converging in MD once again. But I promise to be of good behavior this time around, just have a good ol' time wiv friends.

This has to be the randomest post I've ever put up. I'm typing as it comes to mind. No pre-meditated topic or though out arrangement or watever. It feels gud to jst release n be free...maybe now my mood won't be so shitty anymre...I hope so. Anyways, I hope y'all have a wonderful Valentine's day filled with lots of genuine love from all those who mean alot to you...family, friends and loved ones even ur pets too...hehehe!

From me to you my Blog fam. Happy Valentine's Day and thank you for being there!!!!
Love You!!!!!

Talk to you soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Very Random

Hello Blogsville,

How's everyone doing? It's the weekend again *sigh* how time flies! And a lot sure does happen within one week. So the snow that did not get to my end last week, finally hit this week. For the first time since I've been in this country, we got a snow day in NY. Praise the Lord! NY is so stingy with snow days...lol.

Meanwhile, hmmm all those who want to steal my nephew; Iphy!!! If I catch u...lol. Thanks guys, so now when I gosh, ohhh and ahhh over him u guys understand why. :)

That Twitter is very addictive and encourages amebo tooo musshhh...lol...ahn ahn. Chei! As I'm trying to sign-off and be productive ppl jst kip tweeting stuff dat is attention grabbing. But its also very helpful sha o, I got word of an internship opportunity via Twitter the other day.

Ok, so the weirdest ish happened to me today on the train. I'm sitting jejely by myself o, and this petite oldwoman asks if she can tke my pishure? Initially, I thot she was asking me to tke a pic of her; I was so shocked I ddn't knw wat to do...but everybody around was smiling so I felt bad saying no. My people na so I sit down the woman dey snap me photo ooo...talk say na her hobby to jst capture interesting and beautiful faces and moments...wonderfulous! Mke dem no tke my face tke do juju ooo, all these weird oyinbo people....lol

Yeah...yeah...so Valentine's day (pronounced Valantine...lol) is here and once again I am not going to be getting any loving :( The day I'll get to spend all these special days n' all wiv My Luv ehn, hmmm blogger no go hear word. So, on that day I shall go to church, come home and resume my sleep as usual...once again LDR is a binsssh. For those with special someones or personal persons please in as much as you shdn't wait for Val's day before you express your love, please ensure to still show ur special one some love. If u wanna do it big, do it BIG...if u wanna do it small, do it small...my own be say no go thief oo but dnt be stingy either abeg u. Nothing sucks more than really cheap, randomly selected presents. Take time to add a personal touch...and ermm pls bring the interesting stories back to B'ville ooo.

I got good news today, and I'm hoping it bears fruit; when I have concrete details I'll share.

I was gonna do a list of random things, but I've 4gotten all of it plus am sleepy...zzzzz

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Meet My Snookums!!!

Hello Blogsville,

How's the weekend coming along? It's almost over anyway, and am left wondering what in heaven's name I did with my time. Thanks for the warm welcome back y'all, greatly appreciated. Everyday something happens or a discussion takes place, and I tell myself I'm gonna blog about it; but its either I forget or something sha happens. But today na today, I must to blog, therefore however random and scatter scatter this post is, accept am lyk dat, sho gbo?lol

I used to think it was only market women and 'ashanas' that put money in their bras, apparently not. Some regular, everyday looking chic comes to the bank to make a deposit for her Momsie...she hands me the deposit slip and am waiting for the cash...and to my uttermost surprise she dips her hand into her bra and pulls out the cash...waaaat??? In this day n' age of purse, wallet, trouser pocket, even hand sef na e person dey put money for inside bra! Wonderfulous wonders! The way I looked at the money b4 picking it ehn, the babe sef go fear naa...ahn ahn. Thank goodness for hand sanitizers.

Everybody seems to be finding business opportunities to bring in extra cash, me too I need to find a lucrative business o. Meanwhile, I just missed out on an opportunity to make small extra cash...bringing weave-on to sell to the 9ja chics at my school. I used Xpression-Rose Deep to fix n' braid my hair n' they all luv it and were asking if I brought any. I was too busy soaking up all the good loving from My Luv to remember anything else...lol

Speaking of My Luv, I've been missing him o; but u know what I dnt like? (Am sure my fellow LDR participants can relate) U know when u're jst missing someone and then u jst wanna call them up n' hear their voice...u now dial their number all excited and ish, only for the person not to pick...chei!!!! The thing is painful man and sometimes vexing...lol. The excitement then turns to burtness/vexation when dey finally pick...lol. PS: Still missing u luv.

These weather people can like to over exaggerate things sometimes sha o...If u see hw dey were shouting 'snowstorm' ehn, u go think say all the snow na for America e wan fall finish. I know it was pretty heavy in places like MD sha o, but in my side of NY not a single flurry insight. Those that are snowed in, una sorry oo...by force holiday...lol...enjoy it n mke the best out of it.

Finally finished reading Steve Harvey's, "Act like a Lady, think like a Man" and boy did I enjoy it. That book is a must read IMO. I'll save my review for a later post, but if u haven't read the book pls do. It'll reinforce somethings u already know, make understand certain things better and teach u new things too.

In my last post, I promised to put up a pic of my cutie nephew...here it is; PS: This pic will be taken off in a few days or hours...but enjoy. I love him to bits, and he just brings me joy. *sigh*
That's my snookums!!! Yup he sucks his left hand just like I did...lol...and dat's him in my suitcase, helping me pack/unpack...lol...muahz! He turns ONE this month.

Aiight guys, enjoy whats left of your weekend. Stay positive, and be kind to everyone, u never know who may come ur way.

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

...Back 4rm Naija...!!!

Hello Blogsville,

I'm baaaack!!!! How's everyone doing? What did I miss? Been trying to catch up on you guys blogs, and I gotta say it hasn't been easy. One month is a pretty long time to be away from you guys, and I honestly doubt that I can read all the posts I missed :(.

There's so much to tell you about, I definitely can't do it in one post cos the post will be too long, my fingers will hurt and I knw some of us dnt read long posts so y bother...lol.

My trip to Naij was fun, interesting, enlightening, and drama filled; it started off with a glitch tho'. My flight from NY to ATL got delayed by about 1h 30mins and so we missed our connecting flight from ATL to Naij. Initially I was mad, but then I was like, "God knws why He lets certain things happen..." That stupid Delta Airline of a company, after delaying my flight, all they could do was provide $50 accomodation vouchers. We the passengers now had to pay the difference at the hotel, $56.50 plus another $23 to extend my checking out time...mscheww...I was so pissed, I mean it wasn't my fault the flight got delayed why shd I be paying...nonsense and ingredient.

Amid the horrible things that occur in Naij, you can't help but love the country sha. Where else do u arrive at the airport and people are welcoming you lyk say u be celeb of some of sort...lol. "Ah Omo London, Omo Americana...welcome o!" U walk out the terminal, and ppl are starring, smiling, waving...I luv it! The heat envelopes u, the smell of BO arrests ur nostrils, u try to change some money so u have cash n the mallam tries to be smart thinking u won't count...lol...yup am home!!!

I finally got to see my nephew...and the boy has stolen my heart! When my Mom returned and kept talkn bout him, I was like ahn ahn ki lo de? Nw I understnd...this boy is jst a happy child in every sense of the word. U knw hw babies jst cry and u spend so much time tryna figure out wat d problem is...dis dude is d opposite. Forever smiling, dancing and jst being happy. I miss him soo much! U won't understand until I put up a pic. (Dnt hve my pics on this lappy so bear wiv me...nxt post i'll put it up).

This trip was really important to me cos it gave The Boyfie and I the opportunity to bond even mre, and understnd each other better, and I got to see things I liked and things I didn't like. Cos u knw wiv LDR's u miss out on the lil'things...lyk seeing someone's facial expression when they say certain things, making decisions/plans together, arguing face to face, making up face to face, jst enjoying each others company. Its funny how he reads me like book...lol...he senses when something's not right, and doesn't let it slide...makes sure we sort it out b4 its too late.

My family ehn...lol...na wa. "Ehen, everything The Boyfie, The Boyfie...we want to knw who he is..." This Uncle and that Uncle wants to knw The Boyfie, wat does he do? whr did he go to sch? Hpe he wasn't a cultist? (lol...hw I wan knw dem dey write am for head?) Hpe he's frm a peaceful family? You are in America, he is in Nigeria and you trust him that he's not playing games with you? Wat are his intentions? The whole thing tire me o...ppl of blogsville is dis hw ur fam interrogates the guy u're dating? lol... I ain't mad at them tho', I knw its all love, and they r just looking out for me, and want wats best for me so no wahala. I'm also glad that My Luv understands that its all love...lol.

Meanwhile on my way back, I almost missed my flight because My Luv and I were over lurluxing n' feeling lyk ppl on honeymoon.... story for another day.

School has started and am trying to sort some stuff out with my job...and oh well make we dey look. God dey.

Neways, am back guys...and I missed y'all much!

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

...My 2009 Report Card

Hello Blogsville,

How's everyone doing? I'm guessing we are all looking forward to the New Year and all that it holds for us. As the year draws to an end, some of us make resolutions while some don't bother knowing fully well that the chances of seeing that resolution to the end are slim. I personally do make resolutions, but prefer to call them goals. These goals help to keep me focused and working towards a particular target, but we all know that life has a way of surprising one with twists and turns, that may sometimes require said goals to be re-evaluated. Nevertheless, before setting goals for the upcoming year, let me review 2009. "TAKING STOCK OF 2009":

MY FAITH

My walk with God this year can best be described as me climbing a hill, and then coming back down the hill and just hanging mid-point;neither going down nor up.*sigh* I started the year being fully aware of the fact that I could no longer depend on the prayers of my Mom, family members and loved ones to get me thru...that I could no longer jst go through the motion, I needed to have a relationship with my creator, with God my Father. Everything started off well, as much as possible I made sure to attend service, and be in His presence. And slowly I began to crave Him more and more, to include Him and consult Him in every aspect of my life and regardless of whether things turned out the way I wanted or not, I was glad to have Him in my life. Long story short, few months ago I started coming down the hill, I stopped climbing. I haven't exactly hit rock bottom, but for some reason I'm not making as good an effort as I can to start climbing again. So lately, I've been praying for motivation and for the good Lord to order my steps, and help me find my way back home where I belong.

SCHOOL/CAREER

My grades came in yesterday, and based on the outcome I honestly believe that it is God's way of telling me that even though I feel like I'm so faraway from Him, He's never faraway from me, and will never leave me nor forsake me. Initially I feared that my grades were gonna be thumbs down, but they ended up being good, my best semester GPA till date, and my overall GPA saw a raise as well. Its not by my power or by my might, but by God's overwhelming grace. Career wise, I'm now certain that Advertising is what I want to do, and am gonna try to be the best I can be.

FAMILY

Hmmm...this year has been a real challenging one for my family. An interesting, but challenging event definitely rocked our foundation, and still is but we are all picking up the pieces and moving on. Because life never pauses, it keeps going and we do too. Regardless, the members of my family that I love n' care about are doing great. Sis n' her hubby n' their kids r fine, Aunties n' Uncles are all doing well...and My Mom is being strong, and doing just fine. Me? Well, I hve to be strong for her and the others so I'm fine. Thank God no deaths this year...we are immensely grateful.

RELATIONSHIP
When people ask about the status of my relationship, I dnt reply with "Oh I'm in love" I simply say "I am HAPPY". Because being happy helps to keep the love alive, and makes me look forward to each day, and spending more time with him. If u read A Kiss to Remember then you know that our story is an interesting one.(I know I never finished it, myt do it in 2010...lol) A year ago I had to mke a tough decision, but am glad I did. No head-aches over irrelevant issues, no tears...we had our little tiffs, but we got through them. My Luv has been a good man to me, and I am happy to have him in my life.

FRIENDSHIPS

My girls!!! My beloved duo...Miss B and Miss N...the two people who complete my sentences, and pick-up my thoughts before I even put them down...lol. We know and understand each other so well its hilaxx. We know to back-off during each others diva moments, to give out honest opinions without sugar-coating, to support each other on bad days n' gud days. When I go into MIA mode and I dnt call or return their calls for days they dnt get mad dey understand. Everyone is gud for smething...lol...Miss B for moral advice, Miss N is a girls girl, issues wiv guys n' dating and I am gud for relationship/what do I do advice...lol. When am in their company, am soooo me...loud, quiet, hyper, constantly dancing and laughing. Cnt wait to see y'all...luff uuu.

FINANCES

Thank God for a steady source of income...my job. I didn't save as much as I could have this year at all. I just hope when I start interning without pay, I dnt suffer for it. There was always something to do or help someone take care off. As for my personal spending habits, it was pretty much under control and I was doing ok. But after Christmas shopping, and contributing towards my 9ja ticket, I have a CC bill to tke cre off when I return. I hope I dnt get fired anytime soon o, if not hmmm...lol. (I can see Scribbles smiling in a corner or on twitterville...lol.) But, once that is cleared up I hope to do better @ saving up in 2010.

BAD HABITS

Two things that I would love to work on in 2010 are my eleventh hour approach to things, and my anger. I find it so hard to get things done ahead of time, I prefer to be right on time. I try to get a paper done early and I find it so hard, but when the dead-line is close I have this adrenaline rush that propels me to get it done...why? i dnt knw. And then there's my anger. I dnt lash out or get verbal...I jst huff n' puff, keep a straight angry face, and then keep quiet or reply qstns with one word snippy answers...lol. The problem is snapping out of that mood; cos after being mad for a while even when I'm no longer mad, it takes a while to snap out of it..lol...weird I knw but dts me. So yeah, those are habits I'd def luv to kick in 2010. :) Also, I am going to work on keeping in touch; I suck at it.

All in all, I honestly cannot say I had a bad year becos I did not. Challenging? Yes. I grew alot as an individual, and I have to say Blogsville helped in my growth. I say so because I had to opportunity to experience life from a different perspective through your words and your stories. This year, I learned to love and accept myself flaws and all becos that's what makes me, ME. I learned that being in love doesn't feel like someone is sucking the life out of you, and that in as much as relationships require work, it requires TEAM-WORK and not a one-sided effort, learned to try new stuff like red-lipstick thanks to Zena's Sprawlings...and a whole bunch of other stuff (will do a post later jo).

I am grateful to God for His blessings, and guidance all through the year. And I pray for that 2010 will be a year of greater testimonies in all our lives. See you in 2010 my dear famille, hopefully if My Luv lets me out of his sight for a few mins, I'll update you guys on my trip, but if he doesn't...then see y'all in Feb. Muahz!!! Muahz!!! Muahz!!!

PS: For those in 9ja send me an e-mail if u wanna hook-up.

Talk to you soon,

xoxo,

Miss Enigma!

Not Another Lonely Christmas

Hello Blogsville,

MERRY CHRISTMAS to each and everyone of you!!!
I hope everyone had a great celebration, and day filled with family, friends, love and joy...the things that matter most...and also remembered to recognize the reason for the season. That being said,

It's about 11.30pm here, and as the day comes to an end, my prayer is that I do not want to spend another Christmas like this again. I spent the whole day in bed hitting refresh on FB, Twitter, Blogger, Google...and just wallowing in total loneliness. My Mom was @ work, so I was all by myself...my girlies are in 9ja (I get to see them in a week). I made the usual call rounds to the fam in Naij, and just hearing the joy and excitement in their voices was heart-warming, and heart-wrenching at the same time. The joys of just being together, slaving in the kitchen to prep the meals, greedily gobbling the food down to the detriment of our poor stomachs, and then dreading the clean-up at the end of it all...I miss it.

As the days draw closer to my Naij trip, my brain/mind is going into vacation mode. It's like I can smell the BO filled air that welcomes you at the airport, can feel the humidity warm my cheeks and make my amering rose colored blush, blush. My taste buds are watering in anticipation of the variety of delicacies that await their arrival, my feet can't wait to ditch the Uggs n' boots for flip-flops n' sandals. Then there is my family, my 10month old nephew who is chasing his older brother, and My Luv...*sigh*

On a side note, can someone please tell me why this lousy 23yr old Nigerian dude decided that trying to bomb a plane was a brilliant idea? As if it wasn't bad enuff with the whole online-scams, corruption, poverty et all stigma that we are known for...now we have terrorism. I mean, al-Qaida and Nigeria in the same sentence is not a good look at all. I am proud to be Nigerian, and I'll never deny my country, but I have to admit that this breaks my heart. And I say so because of those of us who struggle everyday to rise above- rise above being black, being African, being female, being a black male. The already tough Visa process, just got tougher too! *sigh* I cringe when I think of people now talking about Nigeria and terrorism in the same sentence, or looking at me with side-eye when I say I'm Nigerian. Now in addition to rising above, we have to prove that being Nigerian doesn't mke us terrorists.

Aiight guys, time to get my lonely behind to bed, gotta be @ work by 9.30am.

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Uber Excited & Grateful!!!

Hello Blogsville,
How's everyone doing??? How YOU doing? What has everyone been up to? Rounding up the semester? Christmas shopping? Traveling to spend christmas with loved ones? Working? Decorating the house? Well all the best to all of you, in whatever it is u're doing. I hear its Scribbles b'day 2morrow...Happy B'day Scribbs...u don dey old o...lol.

So my Fall 2009 semester ended on Wednesday, and boy am I happy its all over. Am grateful to God for seeing me through; and grateful for the people who in one way or another helped me get through the semester.
- To my Mom who took her day-off on thursdays, or came home early on thursdays so I could drive to school for my 6.30-9pm class instead of freezing my butt off @ the bus-stop or train station...I love you more than words can express.
- To Zena's Sprawlings for being my wake-up alarm :), putting up with my random acts of madness, spontaneous dancing in class/public, working on assgts and portfolios with me, shopping with me, getting me to wear n' luv red lipstick and being a good listener....I appreciate u dear.
- To the Boyfie for being there when family issues got overwhelming...for being genuinely interested in everything that concerns me, and loving me just as I am. U're the best Babie!!!
- To my Blog fam for all the prayers n' good-luck msgs during finals, and rough times...mwah mwah mwah, y'all are freakintastic!!!!

Now my focus is on NAIJA 2010!!!! I'm going home in Jan, and unlike last yr when I spent 2wks, am gonna be there for 4weeks. Woohoo!!! I'm soooo over the moon guys. I get to see my nephew who is now trying to walk, spend time with family, friends and most exciting of all My Luv. *sigh* I can't even begin to explain how excited I am, jst trying to compose myself.

I've been in this Amerix for 3yrs, but 9ja will forever be home. Gawd!!! The food, the people, the love...the fun-times. I'm so excited. The only thing is that unlike previous trips your girl is on a budget, so I'm not buying people stuff...and I feel guilty...I dnt knw why. I've been making my list, checking it off, crossing names out, adding names...I don tire. Times are hard o jare. Besides Momsie jst went and got mad stuff, so abeg mke nobody look my side. Am just gonna get my Grandma and the lil'kids pressies...all the adults should understand biko...I'm still a student, not a working graduate.

Aight guys, I have to go get read for work. Its freezing cold guys, this winter ain't playing games chei!

Have a fabulous weekend guys...and remember the reason for the season.

Talk to you guys soon,

oxo,
Miss Enigma!!!

I have a question...???

Hello Blogsville,

How una dey? It's the weekend y'all!!! But unfortunately I'm gonna spend my weekend studying for my last final which is on Wednesday. God dey. Hpe everyone is gonna be getting some well deserved rest.

I met a blogger on twitter :),hehehe!

So my ppl, I have a question for everyone. When do you start sleeping over @ the boyfie's without being hassled by the parents or older folks? Or is it a no-no until u've moved out and have ur own place? What if u're in a/an LDR and only get to see him for the few weeks that u're home visiting, is it wrong to want to spend a night or two over? Wanna hear everyone's POV on this matter. Cos U know how Naija parents and family members could be uptight and hold on to their children almost forgetting that they'll grow up and leave the house.

I was @ the mall bout two weeks ago with a friend, and guess what I heard playing in a store? Shank's Julie!!!!!! Initially when I heard the beat I was like, it can't be...so I walked into the store (Top Gun) and asked the white chic if there was an African working there, she said no. I was like ahn ahn, so ermm pls where did u get this song from? She said she heard it @ a club, loved it and so asked the DJ for it. The babe knew the lyrics to the damn song...I was shocked, and just walked away smiling :).

Just watched Nightline on ABC and they featured how African Food Stores in yankee are selling exotic meat/ bushmeat; and that these items are a threat to the society becos of the diseases that could be spread through the meat. No wonder they've been searching ppl seriously at the airport, and seizing stuff. That's how they seized my indomie and kilishi 2months ago....mschewww.

Aiight guys, gotta go to bed cos I have to be @ work in the morning.
Y'all have a great weekend...and bring the juicy details back to blogsville

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

I'm TORN....!!!

Hello Blogsville,

How's everyone doing? Hope great! I am doing gud @ this end. Today is the last day of classes for me, and my last final is next week wednesday, so I'm glad the semester is coming to an end. I can now begin to look forward to happy days, fun, and more fun.

Ok guys, I just heard and read an article about the whole "Beyonce selling her soul to the devil" issue, and I don't even know what to say guys. I've been a Beyonce fan for a long-time now,(I knw, I knw there alot of you who cnt stand her and that's ok). I've always said I want to attend one of her concerts becos I know I'd be getting my monies worth, becos the girl performs and delivers. But after reading the article, I have to say I'm totally torn.

I mean, I don't know if to believe and what to believe. I always say there's no smoke without fire...therefore there must be some iota of truth somewhere in this fire. Out of all the symbolic connections that the articles made or pointed out, the one that stood out for me, was the picture of her with the motorcycle head-light, and the goat-head symbol. (Look it up here http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=604) As in, I dnt even know what to say. How does goat-head connect to the whole Sasha Fierce theme? That one just had me giving my dear B the side eye/questioning eye.

What is this world turning into, the end-times are really here. And I spooks me at times, just to think about it. Times when it'll be so hard to decipher good from evil, becos its not the everyday evil that we are accustomed to, its more than that. Warfares that we can't see being fought in the spiritual realm. *sigh* Aiight enuff of this, I ddn't mean to go all spiritual on y'all. Its jst that everytime I listen to all her songs there's gonna be that lil' voice in my head wondering, questioning and trying to make sense of it all.

On a lighter note, my very good friend just surprised her boyfie in 9ja. Told him she wasn't coming home for Christmas and all dat, only to just show up! It was so hard for all of us, trying to keep everything under wraps. But it was all worth it in the end. I love surprises, good surprises o, not bad ones...lol. Some ppl are not too fond of surprises...so which do you prefer? To be surprised or not?, that my darlings is the question.

I have two group presentations today guys, wish me luck!

PS: Big shout out to Juiceegal for always reading my blog!!! And for coming back...u cnt go anywhere again, u are now officially on Blogsville arrest!

Have a fabulous day guys, and be the best @ whatever it is u do today!

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Quit catching feelings!!!

Hello Blogsville,

How's everybody doing? Hope y'all had a peaceful and rest-filled weekend. And to my good friend who lost a loved one...I wish I had the words to soothe your hurt, and ease your pain, but I do not. I wanna say take heart, but someone once said how many hearts can you take...
We take solace in the fact that He who knows all and sees all, knows best. So I pray that in this time of pain, hurt n' mourning when you feel like you can't go on...that He will lift you and your family up, and carry you.IJN, Amen. Luff u!!!

My people wats gud? Everytime I want to update, I keep putting it off till when "I can type a coherent post", well let's face it if I wait for that time, I myt as well never post.

So I was Twitter, and I noticed a lot of you were on there, like a mini blogsville. And now I knw hw ppl always get first on blogs...lol...its cos they get the alerts on twitter from the blogger...dats ojoro oo! Neways, I dnt knw wat it is, but the addiction bug has refused to bite me. I follow ppl and I find some tweets interesting, but for me to tweet na wahala, I only have 54 tweets. Well, make we dey look.

This recession and holiday period is causing trouble o; there's been an increase in robberies, and fraud lately...and so am just begging God to spare me o. Cos the amount of fraudulent checks that we've been seeing on the job have just been on the rise. A branch close to mine got robbed few weeks ago. Dunno wat I'll do if I had a gun pointed at me, pray never to experience such.

On a lighter note, mke una cme hear story. So few days ago we discovered that a customer was making a check deposit for 55bucks, but the teller who filled the deposit slip mistakenly filled it for 5,500. This happened a while back, but it was jst caught. So, the man comes in and the Manager asks what he did with the money. Dude says, he ddn't knw about it, that his wife saw the money and was mad that he had such an amount and lied to her; so she withdrew half of it. Lol...na lie o. Dem don spend the money finish...now its time to pay it back. So people if you mistakenly had an excess deposited in ur acct. what would you do?

I saw Law Abiding Citizen during the week, and I loved it. Really, good movie. Jamie Foxx has done well for himself by having very marketable skills. When the music scene isn't as hot, he has his acting to fall back on, and he's pretty good. Nice job J!

Why don't some boys get the message sometimes. If a chic has said she's not interested, move on. If she was interested and just fronting u'll knw cos she'll give u the signs...but when there are no signs just good ol' platonic friendship responses then you shd stop catching feelings and get wiv d programme. Catching too much feelings after u've been told that it ain't gonna happen becomes irritating and annoying biko.

Aiight let me go and continue working on my class project.
Catch y'all later. Have a blessed and productive week ahead my darlings!!!

PS: Aside from F21, CRusse, Wet-seal, H&M, what other on-line/ off-line stores have nice items. Tops, skirts and dresses. Thanx my blogsville fashionistas.

Talk to you soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Family + Sex Addiction = Update

Hi Guys,
How's it going? Hope everyone is doing good...and looking forward to the Thanksgiving break; and our peeps in Naija are looking forward to the very long weekend. The numerous public holidays are part of the things I miss about home...any opportunity to not go to work and just chill.

So I was watching Oprah today, and the topic was Sex Addiction. One online source defines it as " a phenomenon in which individuals report being unable to control their sexual behavior", another source described it as " a progressive intimacy disorder characterized by compulsive sexual thoughts and acts". The term "sex addiction" is not unfamiliar to me, but the gravity and the intensity of the issue was. I mean, its a serious problem for people who suffer from this addiction. As in just like drug addicts go into withdrawal, and crave their high, sex addicts feel the same. Watching the participants of Dr. Drew's Rehab, go thru their withdrawal moments, was an eye-opener.

Anyhoo, moving on...nothing overly exciting has been happening at my end. I'm just trying to keep up with school, and not get overwhelmed. I've applied for my vacation in Jan. pls u guys shd pray that they approve it oo, cos I wanna go home so bad. I need to go and re-fuel and get some proper TLC from My Luv. To be honest, I think seeing him and my lil' nephews are gonna be the best part of the trip. If not for them, there really is nothing else to look forward to. My family is going through a trying time right now, and everyone is suffering from the ripple effects of one person's selfish actions. *sigh* I'm doing okay (I think), but my Mom and my Sis are still trying to recover. I have to be strong for everyone, especially my Mom becos the past forty years of her life have just been turned upside down.

Normally, I'd talk about it with My Luv, but I dnt want to becos then I might stir up emotions that I dnt want to, and also becos wats been done is done.

We will pull through and move past it all, but its gonna take time, prayers and God's grace.

On a lighter note, I took my weave out over the weekend, and got a perm. So to school the next day, I pulled my hair back in a bun or shuku style...and this white dude in my class goes "Oh wow you cut your hair?" lol...oyinbo people are so clueless when it cmes to these things sha.

Aiight people...I know I've been off and on here, but I still check up on u guys and read ur blogs, I just dnt knw how to put together my thots...or maybe my thots right now are just too heavy and complicated to share and burden u guys with. Bottomline is I haven't abandoned B'ville. Love y'all mucho!!! God bless.


Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Gist Unlimited: While I was away...

Hello Blogsville,

It seems like forever since I last put up a post! I can see that nobody milzed me, its all good.
How's everybody doing? Hope great! My life has been crazy these past few weeks, I cnt even begin to explain. The events that have occurred ehn, if I tell u guys, una go think say na 9ja home video, but God dey sha.

So, Momsie was in 9ja for a month on vacay but now she's back. I'm glad she's back, but that means I have to return her motor and return to my leggedz-benz/bus/train movement...*sigh* e go better. School has been a tad-bit overwhelming o! From mid-terms, to group projects, individual projects, search for internships, trying to attend networking events, sorting out classes for next semester...and then trying to stay above and in control of it all. Who talk say multi-tasking easy...omo e hard o! Speaking of which guess who was in my PR Writing class last week?...come on, u can do better than that. Ok, fine I'll tell you....General Colin Powell himself live and direct!!!! You think am lying? Fine, I'll put pics up my next post (too lazy to upload it frm my phone).

And then to have to keep explaining to family members that Advertising & PR is not a waste of time, and that I actually am enjoying the program. Its hard to shake-off that stereotypical view that my beloved 9ja folks have towards majors/degrees that dnt come with a title or are not as recognized like awon Drs, Engrs, Accountants and the likes. E don tire me. My Mom has suggested that I shd go home (9ja) for either Christmas or New-Years; the usual me would be excited and counting down the days, and looking 4ward to time with family and My Luv. But right now I dnt feel that way.

I'm thinking maybe I shd hold-off till next Christmas when I would have graduated (God willing) and maybe gotten a job cos then that would stop all the questions of...when are you graduating? why is it taking this long? What are you studying? Advertising ke? What can you do with that? Why didn't you read Medicine like your sister? Or Nursing like your Mom? Or kpata kpata Bus. Admin sef? Dnt you want to make money?... And the way they twist their nose and roll their eyes sef...worse pass the questioning. I dnt know o jare...they say God's time is the best, and His ways are not our ways; I try to hold on to that, but mehn they mke it hard sometimes. Well make we dey look...will let y'all know what I decide.

Its interesting how when you're growing up, as a kid you think your family is like the perfect picture. Mom and Dad are in love and happy, and as kids our needs are provided and we are shown so much love. And then as you get old enough to understand and notice certain things, the imperfections begin to become obvious. But still yet due to the fact that no one is perfect, we accept these imperfections, and make the best out of situations. In my case, the imperfections don pass be careful. It has turned a once supposedly tightly knit family (extended included) into what I dnt even know. You hear of marriages hitting the rocks and you think naaah, not this fam....cos we ride or die. Ride or die ko...lol. Like I said, the events can be written into a movie script or a book gan sef. Well, God dey.

People of blogsville, I still dey find internship o. If u here about any in the NYC area, let me know oo. In general sha, life is good. I honestly can't complain...becos na who dey alive dey hustle...and am alive. My Luv and I are doing well. He met Momsie while she was in 9ja, and has used his charm on her already...lol. I can be a handful, and still yet he takes it all calmly and handles my mood swings well (lol...except when I go MIA on him...sorry babie)...he's good to me...has a good head on his shoulders and continues to make me happy. I say thank you Lord, for indeed I am blessed.

Biko does anyone know the whereabouts of Kemberly??? This her under construction status don too tay o...hpe u're gud dear. And can someone pls tell ZENA to update ASAP!!! She has lots of stories to tell...trust me...u wanna hear the juicy details...no joke.

Aiight guys...I think I've made up enuff for the period I was MIA. Thanks for stopping by!
Love y'all bunches!!! Have a great day.

Talk to you soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Fear of 13

Hello Blogsville,

How's everyone doing? How YOU doing? Hope things are going well.

Sorry for my absence, life has been hectic. And, I've been trying to "put my house in order."

Had two mid-terms earlier this week, and lets just say the Lord is in control...cos the kind of questions that were on there, and the way they were phrased...well, like I said, He's in control.

Thank you to everyone for ur concern on my last post. Taking responsibility for one's actions is tad-bit hard. Especially, when you have no clue of what the final out come will be. It could either go well, and you get a chance to make it right or you don't and then you lose it all. Well, its not a good feeling sha, and the anxiety can drive one up the freaking wall...but the inner peace that comes when its all settled is so calming. (Hpe that made sense...if it ddn't, dnt sweat it!)

So I finally opened another blog for school; really wish I cld share it with you guys, but then that would mean my anonymous status will be going out the window! Not ready for that just yet...:(.

Help me out my dear blogsville residents, please who remembers the infamous Macmillian Reader? The one with Mr & Mrs Nwosu, and them cooking rice and chicken. And also the very popular Ali and Simbi characters. Simbi with her thread hair-do. We were reminiscing @ school the other day, and Zena said she had never heard of them...lol. Pls can someone tell her that Ali and Simbi were primary school celebrities mehn...lol.

Snow in October??? I'm finished!!! This is definitely gonna be a bone chilling winter this year, and I'm sooo not looking forward to it o! Dear, Lord. Seriously, u have no idea how much I dread winter. :(. Waiting for the bus in such bone piercing, blood freezing, toe-numbing conditions is not fun AT ALL! Just thinking about it, makes me wanna cry.

On a totally random note, in my attempt to try and learn new words (even though, I forget them within days) and increase my vocab to Oga Bagucci's grammar level I found this really long word, and thought it was interesting.

triskaidekaphobia \tris-ky-dek-uh-FOH-bee-uh\, noun:

Fear or a phobia concerning the number 13.

Aiight people, that's about it for now. Its time for me to go have some 'Sweet Dreams'
Have a great day guys!

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Fallen...

I want what I cannot have. I knew I cldn't have it, but I went ahead and found a substitute to pacify the want. And now I have woken up a bigger monster. Weak to resist, slave to my want. Shoulda. Coulda. Woulda. Can't take it back, can't rewind. Knew I shouldn't have, but went ahead all the same; a selfish decision. I take responsibility even though u're oblivious to the situation; I am haunted by it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Argghh!!!