I'm TORN....!!!

Hello Blogsville,

How's everyone doing? Hope great! I am doing gud @ this end. Today is the last day of classes for me, and my last final is next week wednesday, so I'm glad the semester is coming to an end. I can now begin to look forward to happy days, fun, and more fun.

Ok guys, I just heard and read an article about the whole "Beyonce selling her soul to the devil" issue, and I don't even know what to say guys. I've been a Beyonce fan for a long-time now,(I knw, I knw there alot of you who cnt stand her and that's ok). I've always said I want to attend one of her concerts becos I know I'd be getting my monies worth, becos the girl performs and delivers. But after reading the article, I have to say I'm totally torn.

I mean, I don't know if to believe and what to believe. I always say there's no smoke without fire...therefore there must be some iota of truth somewhere in this fire. Out of all the symbolic connections that the articles made or pointed out, the one that stood out for me, was the picture of her with the motorcycle head-light, and the goat-head symbol. (Look it up here http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=604) As in, I dnt even know what to say. How does goat-head connect to the whole Sasha Fierce theme? That one just had me giving my dear B the side eye/questioning eye.

What is this world turning into, the end-times are really here. And I spooks me at times, just to think about it. Times when it'll be so hard to decipher good from evil, becos its not the everyday evil that we are accustomed to, its more than that. Warfares that we can't see being fought in the spiritual realm. *sigh* Aiight enuff of this, I ddn't mean to go all spiritual on y'all. Its jst that everytime I listen to all her songs there's gonna be that lil' voice in my head wondering, questioning and trying to make sense of it all.

On a lighter note, my very good friend just surprised her boyfie in 9ja. Told him she wasn't coming home for Christmas and all dat, only to just show up! It was so hard for all of us, trying to keep everything under wraps. But it was all worth it in the end. I love surprises, good surprises o, not bad ones...lol. Some ppl are not too fond of surprises...so which do you prefer? To be surprised or not?, that my darlings is the question.

I have two group presentations today guys, wish me luck!

PS: Big shout out to Juiceegal for always reading my blog!!! And for coming back...u cnt go anywhere again, u are now officially on Blogsville arrest!

Have a fabulous day guys, and be the best @ whatever it is u do today!

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Quit catching feelings!!!

Hello Blogsville,

How's everybody doing? Hope y'all had a peaceful and rest-filled weekend. And to my good friend who lost a loved one...I wish I had the words to soothe your hurt, and ease your pain, but I do not. I wanna say take heart, but someone once said how many hearts can you take...
We take solace in the fact that He who knows all and sees all, knows best. So I pray that in this time of pain, hurt n' mourning when you feel like you can't go on...that He will lift you and your family up, and carry you.IJN, Amen. Luff u!!!

My people wats gud? Everytime I want to update, I keep putting it off till when "I can type a coherent post", well let's face it if I wait for that time, I myt as well never post.

So I was Twitter, and I noticed a lot of you were on there, like a mini blogsville. And now I knw hw ppl always get first on blogs...lol...its cos they get the alerts on twitter from the blogger...dats ojoro oo! Neways, I dnt knw wat it is, but the addiction bug has refused to bite me. I follow ppl and I find some tweets interesting, but for me to tweet na wahala, I only have 54 tweets. Well, make we dey look.

This recession and holiday period is causing trouble o; there's been an increase in robberies, and fraud lately...and so am just begging God to spare me o. Cos the amount of fraudulent checks that we've been seeing on the job have just been on the rise. A branch close to mine got robbed few weeks ago. Dunno wat I'll do if I had a gun pointed at me, pray never to experience such.

On a lighter note, mke una cme hear story. So few days ago we discovered that a customer was making a check deposit for 55bucks, but the teller who filled the deposit slip mistakenly filled it for 5,500. This happened a while back, but it was jst caught. So, the man comes in and the Manager asks what he did with the money. Dude says, he ddn't knw about it, that his wife saw the money and was mad that he had such an amount and lied to her; so she withdrew half of it. Lol...na lie o. Dem don spend the money finish...now its time to pay it back. So people if you mistakenly had an excess deposited in ur acct. what would you do?

I saw Law Abiding Citizen during the week, and I loved it. Really, good movie. Jamie Foxx has done well for himself by having very marketable skills. When the music scene isn't as hot, he has his acting to fall back on, and he's pretty good. Nice job J!

Why don't some boys get the message sometimes. If a chic has said she's not interested, move on. If she was interested and just fronting u'll knw cos she'll give u the signs...but when there are no signs just good ol' platonic friendship responses then you shd stop catching feelings and get wiv d programme. Catching too much feelings after u've been told that it ain't gonna happen becomes irritating and annoying biko.

Aiight let me go and continue working on my class project.
Catch y'all later. Have a blessed and productive week ahead my darlings!!!

PS: Aside from F21, CRusse, Wet-seal, H&M, what other on-line/ off-line stores have nice items. Tops, skirts and dresses. Thanx my blogsville fashionistas.

Talk to you soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Family + Sex Addiction = Update

Hi Guys,
How's it going? Hope everyone is doing good...and looking forward to the Thanksgiving break; and our peeps in Naija are looking forward to the very long weekend. The numerous public holidays are part of the things I miss about home...any opportunity to not go to work and just chill.

So I was watching Oprah today, and the topic was Sex Addiction. One online source defines it as " a phenomenon in which individuals report being unable to control their sexual behavior", another source described it as " a progressive intimacy disorder characterized by compulsive sexual thoughts and acts". The term "sex addiction" is not unfamiliar to me, but the gravity and the intensity of the issue was. I mean, its a serious problem for people who suffer from this addiction. As in just like drug addicts go into withdrawal, and crave their high, sex addicts feel the same. Watching the participants of Dr. Drew's Rehab, go thru their withdrawal moments, was an eye-opener.

Anyhoo, moving on...nothing overly exciting has been happening at my end. I'm just trying to keep up with school, and not get overwhelmed. I've applied for my vacation in Jan. pls u guys shd pray that they approve it oo, cos I wanna go home so bad. I need to go and re-fuel and get some proper TLC from My Luv. To be honest, I think seeing him and my lil' nephews are gonna be the best part of the trip. If not for them, there really is nothing else to look forward to. My family is going through a trying time right now, and everyone is suffering from the ripple effects of one person's selfish actions. *sigh* I'm doing okay (I think), but my Mom and my Sis are still trying to recover. I have to be strong for everyone, especially my Mom becos the past forty years of her life have just been turned upside down.

Normally, I'd talk about it with My Luv, but I dnt want to becos then I might stir up emotions that I dnt want to, and also becos wats been done is done.

We will pull through and move past it all, but its gonna take time, prayers and God's grace.

On a lighter note, I took my weave out over the weekend, and got a perm. So to school the next day, I pulled my hair back in a bun or shuku style...and this white dude in my class goes "Oh wow you cut your hair?" lol...oyinbo people are so clueless when it cmes to these things sha.

Aiight people...I know I've been off and on here, but I still check up on u guys and read ur blogs, I just dnt knw how to put together my thots...or maybe my thots right now are just too heavy and complicated to share and burden u guys with. Bottomline is I haven't abandoned B'ville. Love y'all mucho!!! God bless.


Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Gist Unlimited: While I was away...

Hello Blogsville,

It seems like forever since I last put up a post! I can see that nobody milzed me, its all good.
How's everybody doing? Hope great! My life has been crazy these past few weeks, I cnt even begin to explain. The events that have occurred ehn, if I tell u guys, una go think say na 9ja home video, but God dey sha.

So, Momsie was in 9ja for a month on vacay but now she's back. I'm glad she's back, but that means I have to return her motor and return to my leggedz-benz/bus/train movement...*sigh* e go better. School has been a tad-bit overwhelming o! From mid-terms, to group projects, individual projects, search for internships, trying to attend networking events, sorting out classes for next semester...and then trying to stay above and in control of it all. Who talk say multi-tasking easy...omo e hard o! Speaking of which guess who was in my PR Writing class last week?...come on, u can do better than that. Ok, fine I'll tell you....General Colin Powell himself live and direct!!!! You think am lying? Fine, I'll put pics up my next post (too lazy to upload it frm my phone).

And then to have to keep explaining to family members that Advertising & PR is not a waste of time, and that I actually am enjoying the program. Its hard to shake-off that stereotypical view that my beloved 9ja folks have towards majors/degrees that dnt come with a title or are not as recognized like awon Drs, Engrs, Accountants and the likes. E don tire me. My Mom has suggested that I shd go home (9ja) for either Christmas or New-Years; the usual me would be excited and counting down the days, and looking 4ward to time with family and My Luv. But right now I dnt feel that way.

I'm thinking maybe I shd hold-off till next Christmas when I would have graduated (God willing) and maybe gotten a job cos then that would stop all the questions of...when are you graduating? why is it taking this long? What are you studying? Advertising ke? What can you do with that? Why didn't you read Medicine like your sister? Or Nursing like your Mom? Or kpata kpata Bus. Admin sef? Dnt you want to make money?... And the way they twist their nose and roll their eyes sef...worse pass the questioning. I dnt know o jare...they say God's time is the best, and His ways are not our ways; I try to hold on to that, but mehn they mke it hard sometimes. Well make we dey look...will let y'all know what I decide.

Its interesting how when you're growing up, as a kid you think your family is like the perfect picture. Mom and Dad are in love and happy, and as kids our needs are provided and we are shown so much love. And then as you get old enough to understand and notice certain things, the imperfections begin to become obvious. But still yet due to the fact that no one is perfect, we accept these imperfections, and make the best out of situations. In my case, the imperfections don pass be careful. It has turned a once supposedly tightly knit family (extended included) into what I dnt even know. You hear of marriages hitting the rocks and you think naaah, not this fam....cos we ride or die. Ride or die ko...lol. Like I said, the events can be written into a movie script or a book gan sef. Well, God dey.

People of blogsville, I still dey find internship o. If u here about any in the NYC area, let me know oo. In general sha, life is good. I honestly can't complain...becos na who dey alive dey hustle...and am alive. My Luv and I are doing well. He met Momsie while she was in 9ja, and has used his charm on her already...lol. I can be a handful, and still yet he takes it all calmly and handles my mood swings well (lol...except when I go MIA on him...sorry babie)...he's good to me...has a good head on his shoulders and continues to make me happy. I say thank you Lord, for indeed I am blessed.

Biko does anyone know the whereabouts of Kemberly??? This her under construction status don too tay o...hpe u're gud dear. And can someone pls tell ZENA to update ASAP!!! She has lots of stories to tell...trust me...u wanna hear the juicy details...no joke.

Aiight guys...I think I've made up enuff for the period I was MIA. Thanks for stopping by!
Love y'all bunches!!! Have a great day.

Talk to you soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Fear of 13

Hello Blogsville,

How's everyone doing? How YOU doing? Hope things are going well.

Sorry for my absence, life has been hectic. And, I've been trying to "put my house in order."

Had two mid-terms earlier this week, and lets just say the Lord is in control...cos the kind of questions that were on there, and the way they were phrased...well, like I said, He's in control.

Thank you to everyone for ur concern on my last post. Taking responsibility for one's actions is tad-bit hard. Especially, when you have no clue of what the final out come will be. It could either go well, and you get a chance to make it right or you don't and then you lose it all. Well, its not a good feeling sha, and the anxiety can drive one up the freaking wall...but the inner peace that comes when its all settled is so calming. (Hpe that made sense...if it ddn't, dnt sweat it!)

So I finally opened another blog for school; really wish I cld share it with you guys, but then that would mean my anonymous status will be going out the window! Not ready for that just yet...:(.

Help me out my dear blogsville residents, please who remembers the infamous Macmillian Reader? The one with Mr & Mrs Nwosu, and them cooking rice and chicken. And also the very popular Ali and Simbi characters. Simbi with her thread hair-do. We were reminiscing @ school the other day, and Zena said she had never heard of them...lol. Pls can someone tell her that Ali and Simbi were primary school celebrities mehn...lol.

Snow in October??? I'm finished!!! This is definitely gonna be a bone chilling winter this year, and I'm sooo not looking forward to it o! Dear, Lord. Seriously, u have no idea how much I dread winter. :(. Waiting for the bus in such bone piercing, blood freezing, toe-numbing conditions is not fun AT ALL! Just thinking about it, makes me wanna cry.

On a totally random note, in my attempt to try and learn new words (even though, I forget them within days) and increase my vocab to Oga Bagucci's grammar level I found this really long word, and thought it was interesting.

triskaidekaphobia \tris-ky-dek-uh-FOH-bee-uh\, noun:

Fear or a phobia concerning the number 13.

Aiight people, that's about it for now. Its time for me to go have some 'Sweet Dreams'
Have a great day guys!

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

Fallen...

I want what I cannot have. I knew I cldn't have it, but I went ahead and found a substitute to pacify the want. And now I have woken up a bigger monster. Weak to resist, slave to my want. Shoulda. Coulda. Woulda. Can't take it back, can't rewind. Knew I shouldn't have, but went ahead all the same; a selfish decision. I take responsibility even though u're oblivious to the situation; I am haunted by it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Argghh!!!

Not a Fan of...

I'm not a fan of smoking. But most of all, I dnt like when a smoker lights up in d midst of people who aren't smoking, thereby forcing everyone within that area to inhale the smoke. Pls step aside and respect public space. It breaks my heart when I see parents smoking infront of their kids, especially babies and toddlers, who have no choice but to inhale the smoke into their tender lungs.

I'm not a fan of spitting on the floor. Normally in 9ja when people spit, they usually either cover it up with sand or do it out of eye-sight, like in the gutter or something (not all the time sha). But in this America, people seem to do it everywhere and anywhere. Was on the bus the other day, and some dude spat on the floor...I mean, for why na? Its disgusting enough to look at, but who knows what sort of air-borne disease is now floating freely in the air, especially in a confined space like a bus. *sigh* Lord help me.

I'm not a fan of exposed pant-lines or butt cracks. If a belt cnt hold ur jeans inplace or they are too tight, then wear another pair. Exposing ur butt-crack is NOT sexy or sexually inviting pls. If u decide to wear leggings pls make sure ur top, dress-shirt or waeva covers ur butt nicely, if u insist on wearing a top that doesn't, make sure check in the mirror that ur underwear isn't exposed; because of the light fabric used in making some leggings, even black underwear is sometimes still visible so double-check or ask someone else to check for you. Save urself the embarrassment of walking around town with ur goodies on display.

I'm not a fan of being FIERCE by force. Its great to wanna look good and divalicious to school, but you can't if you look like you're in pain wearing those 6inch heels. Instead of strutting your stuff in them heels, you end up walking like you're on hot coal and the expression on ur face is jst indescribable. There are other alternatives that still make you look fierce n' spare ur poor feet from going into a coma!

I'm not a fan of masking-up. Making-up yes, but masking-up no! Apply foundation in MODERATION! Make-up is supposed to help enhance beauty and not destroy or deface the already wonderful masterpiece that God has made. If there's no one present to help double-check your make-up, use your camera or your phone to take a quick picture to see where or what needs fine-tuning before you step out and chase people away from you.

Hello Blogsville,

How's everybody doing? Hope y'all are having a great week thus far? Mine has been ok, even though I caught a cold while in MD. I lost my voice and I sound horrible, that's when u manage to hear me; the other times u dnt even hear me at all...all u hear is something that sounds like a dying old woman. Oh well, it is well!

So for my PR Writing class, we have to create a blog! The purpose of the blog, is to tap into our creative writing juices and start sharing our work with the world, and also to share the challenges, struggles and successes we face as Advertising and PR majors. I just tire for my Prof. sha o, its hard enough to manage one blog, not to talk of two. I have no clue what am gonna be posting on that blog; whatever written assignment I do in class, I'll just upload it on there...I cnt fit shout. The wahala now sef is coming up with an interesting title for the blog...any suggestions will be highly welcome!!!

I'm home alone for the next 4weeks...Momsie is on vacay in 9ja.*sigh* I milz my Mommy...lol
The silence is a tad bit annoying jo...but I go survive.

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!