Tuesday, December 29, 2009

...My 2009 Report Card

Hello Blogsville,

How's everyone doing? I'm guessing we are all looking forward to the New Year and all that it holds for us. As the year draws to an end, some of us make resolutions while some don't bother knowing fully well that the chances of seeing that resolution to the end are slim. I personally do make resolutions, but prefer to call them goals. These goals help to keep me focused and working towards a particular target, but we all know that life has a way of surprising one with twists and turns, that may sometimes require said goals to be re-evaluated. Nevertheless, before setting goals for the upcoming year, let me review 2009. "TAKING STOCK OF 2009":
My walk with God this year can best be described as me climbing a hill, and then coming back down the hill and just hanging mid-point;neither going down nor up.*sigh* I started the year being fully aware of the fact that I could no longer depend on the prayers of my Mom, family members and loved ones to get me thru...that I could no longer jst go through the motion, I needed to have a relationship with my creator, with God my Father. Everything started off well, as much as possible I made sure to attend service, and be in His presence. And slowly I began to crave Him more and more, to include Him and consult Him in every aspect of my life and regardless of whether things turned out the way I wanted or not, I was glad to have Him in my life. Long story short, few months ago I started coming down the hill, I stopped climbing. I haven't exactly hit rock bottom, but for some reason I'm not making as good an effort as I can to start climbing again. So lately, I've been praying for motivation and for the good Lord to order my steps, and help me find my way back home where I belong.
My grades came in yesterday, and based on the outcome I honestly believe that it is God's way of telling me that even though I feel like I'm so faraway from Him, He's never faraway from me, and will never leave me nor forsake me. Initially I feared that my grades were gonna be thumbs down, but they ended up being good, my best semester GPA till date, and my overall GPA saw a raise as well. Its not by my power or by my might, but by God's overwhelming grace. Career wise, I'm now certain that Advertising is what I want to do, and am gonna try to be the best I can be.
Hmmm...this year has been a real challenging one for my family. An interesting, but challenging event definitely rocked our foundation, and still is but we are all picking up the pieces and moving on. Because life never pauses, it keeps going and we do too. Regardless, the members of my family that I love n' care about are doing great. Sis n' her hubby n' their kids r fine, Aunties n' Uncles are all doing well...and My Mom is being strong, and doing just fine. Me? Well, I hve to be strong for her and the others so I'm fine. Thank God no deaths this year...we are immensely grateful.
When people ask about the status of my relationship, I dnt reply with "Oh I'm in love" I simply say "I am HAPPY". Because being happy helps to keep the love alive, and makes me look forward to each day, and spending more time with him. If u read A Kiss to Remember then you know that our story is an interesting one.(I know I never finished it, myt do it in 2010...lol) A year ago I had to mke a tough decision, but am glad I did. No head-aches over irrelevant issues, no tears...we had our little tiffs, but we got through them. My Luv has been a good man to me, and I am happy to have him in my life.
My girls!!! My beloved duo...Miss B and Miss N...the two people who complete my sentences, and pick-up my thoughts before I even put them down...lol. We know and understand each other so well its hilaxx. We know to back-off during each others diva moments, to give out honest opinions without sugar-coating, to support each other on bad days n' gud days. When I go into MIA mode and I dnt call or return their calls for days they dnt get mad dey understand. Everyone is gud for smething...lol...Miss B for moral advice, Miss N is a girls girl, issues wiv guys n' dating and I am gud for relationship/what do I do advice...lol. When am in their company, am soooo me...loud, quiet, hyper, constantly dancing and laughing. Cnt wait to see y'all...luff uuu.
Thank God for a steady source of income...my job. I didn't save as much as I could have this year at all. I just hope when I start interning without pay, I dnt suffer for it. There was always something to do or help someone take care off. As for my personal spending habits, it was pretty much under control and I was doing ok. But after Christmas shopping, and contributing towards my 9ja ticket, I have a CC bill to tke cre off when I return. I hope I dnt get fired anytime soon o, if not hmmm...lol. (I can see Scribbles smiling in a corner or on twitterville...lol.) But, once that is cleared up I hope to do better @ saving up in 2010.
Two things that I would love to work on in 2010 are my eleventh hour approach to things, and my anger. I find it so hard to get things done ahead of time, I prefer to be right on time. I try to get a paper done early and I find it so hard, but when the dead-line is close I have this adrenaline rush that propels me to get it done...why? i dnt knw. And then there's my anger. I dnt lash out or get verbal...I jst huff n' puff, keep a straight angry face, and then keep quiet or reply qstns with one word snippy answers...lol. The problem is snapping out of that mood; cos after being mad for a while even when I'm no longer mad, it takes a while to snap out of it..lol...weird I knw but dts me. So yeah, those are habits I'd def luv to kick in 2010. :) Also, I am going to work on keeping in touch; I suck at it.
All in all, I honestly cannot say I had a bad year becos I did not. Challenging? Yes. I grew alot as an individual, and I have to say Blogsville helped in my growth. I say so because I had to opportunity to experience life from a different perspective through your words and your stories. This year, I learned to love and accept myself flaws and all becos that's what makes me, ME. I learned that being in love doesn't feel like someone is sucking the life out of you, and that in as much as relationships require work, it requires TEAM-WORK and not a one-sided effort, learned to try new stuff like red-lipstick thanks to Zena's Sprawlings...and a whole bunch of other stuff (will do a post later jo).
I am grateful to God for His blessings, and guidance all through the year. And I pray for that 2010 will be a year of greater testimonies in all our lives. See you in 2010 my dear famille, hopefully if My Luv lets me out of his sight for a few mins, I'll update you guys on my trip, but if he doesn't...then see y'all in Feb. Muahz!!! Muahz!!! Muahz!!!
PS: For those in 9ja send me an e-mail if u wanna hook-up.
Talk to you soon,
Miss Enigma!


CerebrallyBusy said...

lol...i know that feeling of not being able to snap out of the mood

happy new year!

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histreasure said...

oh girl..i am so wth u on doing everything last minute..hmm, somehow, the things always turn ok great sha.. we have to work on it tho, it exasperates the people around us

happy new year

iphyigbogurl said...

happy new year!!!

neefemi said...

Amen and a Happy New Year and enjoy your time with your man, we will wait till Feb for posts...God Bless you

Suru said...

Happy New Year!!!

Myne Whitman said...

Still in naija I guess. Happy new year dear and 2010 will be even greater for you in all spheres.

Secretista said...

Very interesting 2009 "report card". There's nothing like a relationship with God.

Kabi-Osi Edumare said...

Happy new year.Wishing you safe trip back.

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