I want what I cannot have. I knew I cldn't have it, but I went ahead and found a substitute to pacify the want. And now I have woken up a bigger monster. Weak to resist, slave to my want. Shoulda. Coulda. Woulda. Can't take it back, can't rewind. Knew I shouldn't have, but went ahead all the same; a selfish decision. I take responsibility even though u're oblivious to the situation; I am haunted by it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Argghh!!!