Sunday, August 16, 2009

...Feeling Blue...

Hello Blogsville,

How's everyone doing? Hope y'all had a very peaceful and fun-filled weekend. And looking forward to the start of another week? I had a nice weekend; my cousins celebrated their one year birthday. Twin girls, Nicole and Michelle...soooo adorable...love them to bits!!! It was kinda like a 9ja get together u know, music, food, 9ja people...just a general good time. Something happened, but I'll blog about that later.

Right now am in a very withdrawn kinda mood. You know that feeling where you think of the things you wish you had done differently, and u're not proud of urself cos of it. U wish u cld go back and do it allover again, but u can't. The past is a cancelled check and the here and now is the only cash I have to make it right from here on. I hold myself responsible and accountable, and I've forgiven myself, but forget I cannot. I can't even talk about it with someone else bcos talking about, brings that feeling of failure back up, and reminds me all over again. *sigh* I can't runaway from it, dnt think I even want to cos lessons learned help in making me a better person from my mistakes.

Also, in church today the topic was PATIENCE...being "slow to anger". It was like the message was meant for me. I allow myself to get ticked off too easily, and then seconds later realize that I shdn't have but in the space of seconds, I might have already said something, thought something, or my general body language wld have displayed anger. *sigh* I dnt wanna be that way...Lord, I dnt wanna be that person who you speak off in Prov 14:29- "Patient people have great understanding, but people with quick tempers show their foolishness"

You are a God that is "slow to anger", help me in this struggle.

Anyways, so yeah I'm in that down but hopefully not out, kind of mood. Where you jst reflect and cry, reflect some more and cry some more. And am currently listening to songs by LIGHTHOUSE FAMILY...does anybody remember them? The black guy's Nigerian, Tunde something. In my high-school then two of their songs were anthems for when lights went out, or when we were in large groups or something...lol...good memories.

Enjoy guys....










Have a great week guys!

Talk to you guys soon,
xoxo,
Miss Enigma!

11 comments:

Maxine said...

Patience huh? Quite the difficult virtue to uphold huh? To add to your list of Bible verses)James 1:19-20)is a pretty good one too. Hope your thoughts are cleared up soon! Thanks for stopping by my blog!

Rene said...

Patience isn't easy 4 rilz....I used to have or rather have that problem, just waiting on God for things to get better.
He'll help you all the way.

Myne Whitman said...

Things will def get better, just hold on. Like someone told me once, you need to cry once in a while to get some stuff out of your system. Take care dear.

leggy said...

nice sermon...im not patient at all oh..and lil things bother me.

Tigeress said...

I am so with you on being slow to anger. thanks for sharing!

RocNaija said...

"Baiyewu"..
That was his name..

Tunde Baiyewu..

TaioFierce Ameen said...

Dont wori anything u ask 4 wit faith frm God he ll def do.... and dis low feelin shall pass...

BSNC said...

Hope you feel better now..

I love that song; Ocean's drive :)

Original Mgbeke said...

Awwww, I hope that you are feeling better now my dear. We do have our days...
Me kwa I need to learn patience/how to control my temper. My friend has already offered to pray for me. LOL

Buttercup said...

Aww sweetie..it happens to the best of us. I do hope you snap out of it soon. Glad you enjoyed your cousins' birthday. I love Lighthouse Family. Feel better soon, ok? Mwah!

Temite said...

Pele......Think and reflect. It will only do you some good.
Everymorning when I wake up, thats the first thing I ask God. His humility and his patience and little by little he is working on me. lol.....Hope you feel better. XOXO