Have you ever felt like you were sabotaging something so good, something you've been building and working on... Something that matters to you, that you cherish.
Somehow your actions and sudden lack of action seem to be slowly causing harm, and eating away at the foundation.
I can't even explain but right now I just feel like I am slowly ruining something I really cherish...*sigh*
Hope everyone is having a wonderful peaceful weekend!!!
PS: So this past week has been sorta kinda rough, and sorta kinda weird.
I've cried more in this one week, than I have since this year began. Been trying to figure it all out...why I'm in a mood? What or Who am I angry at? What am I worried about/scared of? What is it that I'm bottling inside that keeps resurfacing? What is it I want?
I'm sitting here watching reruns of Parenthood and am I'm bawling, and the tears just won't stop. I keep saying "I don't know, I don't know" but that's not good enough an answer *sigh*
Maybe my hormones are just messing with me or maybe, just maybe I'm tired and drained. I need strength and reassurance to keep going. Help me Lord because I need you.
Talk to you soon,