Friday, August 19, 2011

Day #14: What I Wore To Work...

Hi Guys,

Just a quick collage post for this blog challenge thing (yes I am still struggling, *sigh* so much is going on right now). 

Anyways this is what I wore to work yesterday. I'm so happy that my industry does not require us to wear business casual's jeans and tops, skirts and summery dresses, and even flip flops sef.

Anyways gotta go, its past 1am and I need some zzzz :) 

Hugs & Kisses,
Miss Enigma!

Friday, August 12, 2011

Day #13: My Statistics Are...

Hi Me Darlings,

TGIF!!! Cheers to the weekend! I'll drink to that! So this is going to be the first weekend in a while that my butt is gonna be home! Usually on Fridays after work I head over to my friends place in Jersey to spend the weekend and go to work from there on Mon and Tues. We always have fun, chilling and just being with friends. Growing up I never really had friends coming over to my house to chill or spend house was on the outskirts of town, kinda like in the not so developed part of town so the commute wasn't fun. I used to feel like a trapped princess, stuck in our white house with fence all around. We had dogs that used to scare ppl in the neighborhood so ppl were scared of even coming close lol story for another day.

Glad that you guys liked my 5 attractive men...yummy pieces of creation lol. So today's challenge is to write about "My Body and How Comfortable I am in it"

Petite. Compact. Tiny. Portable. now you get the picture. These words are words that have been/are used to describe me. I'm 5ft tall, my statistics are roughly 32-24-34...clothes wise, I wear size 0, 00, 1, 2, XXS, XS, S depending on the brand because some brands cut their sizes bigger than normal. Shoe size I'm a 6 1/2 -7 depending on whether they are pumps, sandals or flats etc. There are days when I love my body and my size and then there are days and times when I'm not a fan...but for the most part I'm pretty much happy with me body :) 

Even though I was asleep when God was sharing height, I was def in the front lines when he was sharing boobs, so that kind of makes up. Not just becos boobs are attractive but becos it helps me to fill out clothes nicely...and so tops and dresses have nice fit...and I dnt look like a 15yr old. The ass region is not bad for my size but i prefer to call it a "sitting device" as opposed to a "booty" lol. Somedays my tummy dsnt cooperate and I wonder if I might be expecting, but most times it stays decent and dsnt protrude lol.

I'm not my body's biggest fan when I shop at times. This is because American sizes are not true to size. Because howelse can a dress say size 2 or Small and still look like I'm wearing Madea's dress? How? So whenever I see something that fits I jst buy it...because who knws when it'll come in handy. Also I dnt have a lot of store options: F21, H&M, Charlotte Russe, Strawberry, Zara and then chinko stores that are hit and miss...that's about it.

I also sometimes feel awkward when I'm in the midst of people who are way taller and bigger. I feel so tiny, but then once I get comfortable that feeling fades away.

Perks about my size are that people are willing to help for the most part...for example when I'm travelling and I get on the plane I jst stand in the middle of the aisle and look cute and helpless and some dude quickly helps me put my hand luggage in the over head compartment...well its either they help or the luggage go block road for everybody lol.
I also find it interesting when people underestimate me because of my size and then they , meet me, my personality and who I really am and they are like wow :) it makes me smile.

Then there's the vain part of me that loves the attention I get when I'm all dressed up and I walk into a place...and everyone notices me. I always tell myself if I was average height I'd blend in with everybody else...but with my size I don't. I have stretch marks on my butt and they don't faze me one bit, I love 'em lol I have one or two cellulite dimples and thats it, those dnt bother me either. I do wanna gain a bit more weight, I always say its good to give a guy something to hold lol x_x but no guy has complained yet. The guy that will make a negative comment will def not be getting beyond the friendship zone! #ThatIsAll

Anyways, like every other female there are days when I'm not crazy about my bod, but for the most part I love my body! I don't workout, but I dance for about 2-3hours :) I need tot ke cre of what I put in my body tho :( I eat junk food...I jst hope it dsnt catch up with me later on. My Mom is still hot and she's almost 60! Mama got a bootyyyy and a nice figure I pray I look like her when I'm older too.

Have a great weekend everyone!!! 

Hugs & Kisses,
Miss Enigma!     

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Day #12:

Hi Guys,

How's everyone doing? Hope great! As I type this post, it's about 5.05pm and I'm rounding up for the day, so I decided to quickly put this up before my evening gets crazy with my side gig work and before you know it the day will be over.

So for today's challenge, I need to list 5 men I find attractive :) hehehe! Why only 5 though? lol...anyways so here are my 5 men. In no particular order and for quite obvious to the eye reasons, I find these men yummy and lip smacking hot! 

- Josh Duhamel: Hubby to Black Eyed Peas Fergie, and one of the reasons why I love the movie series Transformers. There's this laidback, cool thing about him that makes him seem like you can jst chill in a no need for pretty dresses and makeup to impress him kinda way. Just a clean shirt, denim shorts and sme lip-gloss will be jst fine.
Jesse Williams: He plays Dr Avery on Grey's Anatomy...*le sigh* his EYES! #ThatIsAll

- Will Smith: I'm in love with the Smith family...GOOD GENES! May my children be fine, but yeah their father...hmmm. There's jst smething about a man that has great dress sense, is funny but at the same time has a great appreciation for life and u can see it with the way he has managed to keep his family including his ex-wife together...and drama free. I respect that and kudos to both Jada and the other woman.

- Denzel Washington: If I was wealthy enough, I'd pay money for my Mom to have a date with this man...she's in love with him. She dsnt knw names of a lot of celebrities but she knws his name! I have a soft spot for him too...dude seems to be aging gracefully too and still looking fresh. (This is an older pic tho)

- Patrick Dempsey: I've loved Dr McDreamy since the beginning of Grey's. Even though the show isn't as great as it used to be, I still watch it. I like what him and Meredith have...:) His eyes and his hair!!!! *sigh* He should get a hair endorsement deal, I wonder what his manager and publicist are waiting on.


...So there you have it guys! My top 5 most attractive men. :) Please Lord send a fine man my way so my children will be fine too oo.

Have a great night me darlings!

Hugs & Kisses,
Miss Enigma!!!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Day #11: Mon Famille est....

Hi Guys,

Hope everyone is having a great day! So yeah in my last post I talked about finishing this 30 day challenge by hook or by crook! I'm gonna skip the Day 10 "First 10 Songs that Play On Your Music Player", because at the moment I kinda dnt have one/knw where it is, and I have a new laptop so no music on it except Beyonce's 4 album and Gidilounge radio :) I'll move on to Day 11 which is about "My Family"

My family...hmmm I honestly don't know where to start or what to say. So I'll jst make it brief. My family consists of My Dad, My Mom, My Older sis, Step bro and myself. Like every other family we had our ups and downs, highs and lows, but we've managed to weather the storm and hang in there...that was until about 2years ago when well things just kinda fell apart and everyone had had enough. Everyone is trying to heal and move on with their lives individually. 

I miss my Dad and the good memories...he's not perfect but he's Daddy. I just wish he didn't make the choices and decisions that he did. I talk to him once in a while (It's his b'day today) and I visit him when I go to Naija, but ....things are not the same, things are not the same as before. 
My extended family from my Mom's side is AMAZING! It's like a team where everyone works together for the good of everyone, making sure that everyone is okay and doing fine. LOVE and SUPPORT are the two words that would describe them the most. My Aunts are like my mother, aunties and friends all wrapped in one :) And my Uncles are good men, not perfect but good men all the same.

My Sisters kids (two boys) are my darlings! I love my nephews. They could be a pain in the tush, but still they are my babies! Can't wait for her to have a girl, it'll be a wrap! I go spoil her die! My Sis and I are close even though we used to knock heads a lot (she's 10yrs older lol so go figure) we might knock heads, but if u dare try to come against us or our Mom, then u'll see that we really are sisters. BBM has helped us chat mre and get to knw each other better.

My Mom is SUPERWOMAN in human flesh. If I can be half the woman she is, then I know for sure I'd be a great mother to my kids. Mummy mi toh bad gan!!! We fight o dnt get me wrong, but I love her with all that I am, I think we've been living together too long thats why we've been arguing need to find my place so that we can both miss each other a little bit. I love my Mummy that's my Mummy :) 

So there, you have it that's my family :)

I'm gonna try to keep up with this challenge cos I think the blogging/writing will be helpful/therapeutic for me even though like I've said before I can't be as candid as I wanna be because of people who know me, read this blog and are involved with the experiences that I wanna share.
Neways if you're reading this, I really do hope you're doing good.

Have a great day me darlings!

Hugs & Kisses,
Miss Enigma!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Have You Seen Him?

Hi Me Darlings,

X_X Yes, yes I know I've been bad. I didn't make it through my blog challenge even those who started after me have finished! *sigh* story of my life! I'm actually really mad at myself because I was hoping for once I'd finish something I started. I'm thinking of still continuing just to prove the negative voice in my head wrong.

Neways, it's been a whirl-wind these past three weeks plus. I miss the days when I was a child and was free of making decisions that involved other people...when life was care-free and just pleasant. I respect bloggers who are open and candid about their lives, I wish i could do that. Part of the reason I stay anonymous is so I can be free to express myself, emotions and all, but still I can't. Why? Afterall, this is my blog you might ask. Well first off there's the feelings of other parties involved to be respectful of, then there's just the fear of being judged by readers. I knw we might say "ohh I dnt judge", but we all do unconsciously. We create this perception of a person based on the parts of themselves that they share with us, and sometimes we are wrong. Neways, my point is I dnt wanna be wrongly judged or misunderstood and I also dnt want people who haven't met me to have the wrong impression.

And so for the above reasons I can't really say and express myself the way I would want to. (I should just shut down the blog then, right? :) ) Life is like a classroom, we keep showing up to class everyday and learning something new, but we never graduate or stop learning until we take our las breath. Isn't it funny how when you need to make a decision and you reach out to ppl who you respect and love for their advice/2cents and they tell you "do what makes you happy" smh lol....if I knew what made me happy, I won't be coming to you for advice. And then some say A, some say B and at the end you're back at square even more confused than you were. *sigh*

"Do what makes you happy" I wish I had a looking glass that would allow me look into the future so I could tell what exactly would make me happy. But life doesn't work that way right? I know I know. So I'm gonna have to figure this one out the hard way (which some people think is the easy way, but trust me its not). I'm going to take it one day at a time, and just go with it. I have no rulebook, no map, no compass etc just one day at a time.
And yes! I know I need God to help me, and be my ultimate guide but here's the problem...we've not been on talking terms for a while! Yes, I know He's there waiting for me to reach out...but that's the problem I keep reaching out and falling off along the way. If I were God I'd be tired of myself, and I know He's not me but still *sigh*  
I've tried reaching out lately, but something's not clicking. Like normally I would have a conversation with Him, like He was sitting next to me and just talk...but I've tried and I can't get past the first two sentences. Don't know what it is... It's either He's so mad at me that He's currently not listening (y'all know as merciful as He is He still gets angry sha), OR I've just drifted so far away that there's so much noise between me and Him that even though He's there I can't hear Him cos of the "noise", OR I haven't hit rock bottom enough yet; maybe I'm supposed to hit rock bottom so that my cry for help will be louder than it is now, OR maybe I haven't tried to reach out enough and I should just try harder *sigh* I'll keep trying! 

Apartment hunting sucks a**!!! Especially in this freaking NYC! I need to find a room-mate and then apartment before the end of Fall because I don't want Winter to meet me on this my current work commute. My commute each way is about an hour 15mins, and I knw it'll be worse in the Winter with bus delays from the snow and all that BS. Please if you know if anyone in the NY area who is looking for a room-mate please let me know. No weirdos pls! I like to go out once in a while, like to hang out but I also love to have my own space and privacy so I know how to give people theirs. Things I can't stand are dirt and untidiness!!! Hair balls in the shower, dirty dishes in the sink for days, garbage not thrown out are a NO NO! 

Neways, Let me stop before I bore you guys to death with my random ramblings. But I want to say thank you to two people; just when I think I'm doing a good job of putting on a smiley face when infact I'm down and out...they read between the lines and the smileys... so Thank YOU to my booski Lohi and my dear Neefemi!!! I appreciate the both of you!!!  

Have an awesome day!

Hugs & Kisses,
Miss Enigma!