How's everyone doing? Hope great! Apologies for not blogging in weeks...but I've been here reading all your posts :)
What have I been up to the past few weeks? Well let's see...
Mama turned 60! :) We had dinner with a friend of hers at this vintage-y nice restaurant (TheWaterClub.com) over looking the Hudson River. The view was really nice, and the food was good. It's always a pleasure to treat my mama. I've also noticed that lately I've just had this constant deep appreciation and admiration for her, for all she's done and continues to do. Don't get me wrong I always have, but lately just something different...maybe because I'll be moving out soon I'm noticing all the tiny things I'll miss about her and just how much of a hugeeeeee part of my life she is. :)
Work's been busy, and a little overwhelming...but lately I've been itching and twitching for a change. I think I want a new job. A different career path from what I'm currently doing. Don't get me wrong I am GRATEFUL to have this job, but I think I am slowly becoming more in tune with what my 'passion' is; what I enjoy doing and my mind is becoming restless, longing to begin a journey in that direction full time. But there's a huge change coming in the next few months that I need to take care of God needs to help me take care of first, before I can seriously focus on this career itch.
Speaking of change, remember in my last post I mentioned that I had been waiting on something for a long, long time and that D-day was coming? Yeah, well D-day was indeed the day that the Lord made, and we rejoiced and were glad in it! We got what we were pursuing, and thanks to it distance won't be a problem much longer, if you know what I mean ;)
In other news, I am beginning to have mini quarter-life crisis outbreaks! Lol I don't know what it is about turning 25 that just makes people panic...and begin to wonder am I where I should be at this stage in my life? Should I be doing more? Have I checked off XYZ on my 'to-do-list? Is my life as I know it about to come to an end due to new responsibilities that I'm going to take on in this new phase of my life aka...marriage and kids... and we all know all the other numerous questions we ask ourselves as we approach the big 25. What are your thoughts on quarter-life crisis? How did you handle yours? Or is it just another obsession that society or maybe culture has succeeded in embedding into our subconscious?
I found this on BBM "A woman's loyalty is tested when her man has nothing. A man's loyalty is tested when he has everything". I don't know who the words are by, but I have to say this is true to a large extent. Do you agree or disagree?
Its hard when you're mad at a loved one, but you can't express that anger the way you really want to sometimes - yelling profanities, cursing and just letting it all roll of your tongue the way you want it to - because you're trying not to say something hurtful even though the origin of your anger is from them hurting/upsetting you. It sucks that it is the ones we love and care about who ultimately have the ability to hurt us more than a random stranger...such is life.
They say forgiving is easy, but forgetting is the difficult part; but how do you really forgive when you can't forget? Jesus be a fence!
Ahoy! How's everyone doing? Happy Hump Day to you all! Two more days till the weekend...can't really complain because the weather has been a-m-a-z-i-n-g here in NYC. Talk about upper 60's, and even 70's kinda weather...this def makes me a happy camper! Apologies for not putting up a post yesterday (Tuesday) like I've been doing for the past 2-3 weeks but I'm here now :) So let's talk me darlings...
I'm not one to go up to the pulpit or even just stand up to give testimonies in church. I get shy, and sometimes worry that it's too tiny a thing bother people with, or that there are people who might be hurting and this (my testimony) just might do more harm than good. Rewind to Dec 31st, 2011, E and I went to his church for midnight service. A very small Redeemed parish by his house, the kind where everybody pretty much knew everyone...his Mom is a worker in church too. Come testimony time, and E's like you should go up and give thanks, it's been a good year for you. I want to, I know I should but I look around and I'm worried that I might be showing off, that in a small community where people are just managing to get by I shouldn't rub my blessings in. Next thing, two different people go up thanking God for their red passports, another for job promotions, for acceptance into college, for good health etc... *sigh* What an idiot I was! Hoarding what God had given me thinking it was 'too much', meanwhile He's doing the same and more for people who I had wrongly judged. Shame on me!
I don't jump up in church every Sunday now, but what I learnt from that day was to not be selfish with my praise and thanks to God for His blessings towards me. No matter how little (or big) I might think it is, He is worthy of ALL praise! So today, I just want to say THANK YOU Lord for giving me a job! Today makes it one year since I started working here. I interviewed for this job Dec. 2010 (a week before I graduated) but didn't get it because I was going to be away in Nigeria all of January. They hired someone else, and I came back from Nigeria and was looking elsewhere...then they called me back mid February when a second opening came up. I didn't have the experience, but they trained me on the job.
I have friends who I graduated with who still can't find jobs...and it breaks my heart! But I keep believing that their testimony will come; but I've run out of words of encouragement for them and all I can do is pray, and pray that they don't give up on themselves.
Lord, words cannot express how grateful I am for ALL that you do and have done in my life. I am undeserving, but somehow your mercy seeks me out when I cower and hide, and you shower me with your grace from day to day. Father, we do not question you nor do we doubt you but we trust in your perfect timing! While we wait for that time I beg that you please give all those waiting on you for their testimony (jobs, good health, fruit of the womb, salvation, etc) the patience and strength to keep holding on and trusting you becos sometimes it ain't easy. But with you, we shall overcome in Jesus name. Amen.
Speaking of waiting for something...I've been waiting for something for about 3+ years, and tomorrow is D day. I'm trying not freak out, or be overly anxious because it's really out of my hands lol. I've done my part; crossed my t's, dotted my i's and now (just as its always been) it's in God's hands to finish what He has started. If When all goes as planned, it'll be a new phase in my life. :)
Neways, thanks for sharing in my thankful post today :) I appreciate, and look forward to sharing in yours! Have a wonderful day, and hope you enjoy this song it's one of my current favs!!!
