...July is usually my favorite month of the year for the obvious reason that it is my birthday month. Soo much has been going on and I just haven't had time to take a minute to put a post together...sorry guys. But I've been reading all your posts from time to time.
So what have I been up to this month? I'll sum it up in two parts.
I turned the big 25 on the 7th! Yup, I'm officially getting old-er! Chai. 7th was a Saturday, and I had a party with a fellow friend and exact birthday mate down to the year. We have pretty much the same circle of friends, so we decided to throw a party together. It wasn't a roof-top venue as I wanted, but it was a party filled with people I love, who love me and make me happy in their own way. And that was enough for me. Felt like a princess too; hair done, nails done, make up by a pro and alla that lol I was feeling like a million bucks shaa. No wonder celebs get hyped from all that attention.
Funny thing is I woke up that day and it's like I'm 25 now what? Am I supposed to have an automatic aha-moment? Mind-blowing revelation? Well if I was supposed to I didn't. I still don't feel a day over 21, 18 sef...lol I still get carded at the movie theatre! But what I do know is that every life experience, every mistake, every achievement - big or small, every waking second of my life and the unending grace of God has brought me to where I am now; and made me who I am. I hope to do better, and be better with each day moving forward...and I am grateful.
The other thing that has kinda, sorta occupied my time is... *drum-roll please*
Him & I
Le partner/boo/lover/boyfie is here! My LDR days are over. An early birthday present you can call it. Some of you might remember few months ago I was praying and wanting something so bad, well it all worked out and thanks to God he is here...not to visit, but to stay :) This is all new to me, and there's a lot of adjusting that's taking place. Me having to learn to share my space and not be overly independent and head-strong...Him having to understand me in my own space (not the me in Nigeria on vacation), understand life here in the US, and us finally getting to learn and understand what its like to live together, be together. No BBM, skype and phone convos anymore...it's face to face now. When we argue we can't just ignore bbms, we have to confront the situation, talk it out, yell it out, then talk it out again lol
It's a whole new experience. But like I said I wasn't sure what to expect with this move. Would I be jumping off couches like Tom Cruise, or cheesing endlessly like a high school teenager? I still don't know...what I do know is it is nice to come home to hugs, to be cuddled to sleep, to not have to load call cards or use Rebtel, to not be mad that skype sessions were ruined thanks to shitty Naija connection. Its nice to make plans, to argue face to face and make up, take walks holding hands, do Sunday brunch... you get the drift. It's not easy there are great days, okay days and blehh days but at least we share them next to each other.
I'm learning too. To work on my anger, and my attitude when I'm mad. The other day we argued and I was about leaving the house and he said " don't I get a goodbye kiss?" I was shocked...like I'm mad at you, and you're mad too how am I supposed to kiss you? What I learned was that yes we were both not happy about something, but it didn't have to be all sour... the kiss lightened the mood but what I appreciated the most was him being the bigger person, making the effort to resolve the situation and not make it escalate. After the kiss, we ended up really talking and laughing about what got us both mad and I left the house feeling sooo much better.
I'm thankful for the opportunity to learn, grow, love and be loved!
Hope everyone is doing great! It's almost Friday people, hang in there!
Ahoy! How's everyone doing? Happy Hump Day to you all! Two more days till the weekend...can't really complain because the weather has been a-m-a-z-i-n-g here in NYC. Talk about upper 60's, and even 70's kinda weather...this def makes me a happy camper! Apologies for not putting up a post yesterday (Tuesday) like I've been doing for the past 2-3 weeks but I'm here now :) So let's talk me darlings...
I'm not one to go up to the pulpit or even just stand up to give testimonies in church. I get shy, and sometimes worry that it's too tiny a thing bother people with, or that there are people who might be hurting and this (my testimony) just might do more harm than good. Rewind to Dec 31st, 2011, E and I went to his church for midnight service. A very small Redeemed parish by his house, the kind where everybody pretty much knew everyone...his Mom is a worker in church too. Come testimony time, and E's like you should go up and give thanks, it's been a good year for you. I want to, I know I should but I look around and I'm worried that I might be showing off, that in a small community where people are just managing to get by I shouldn't rub my blessings in. Next thing, two different people go up thanking God for their red passports, another for job promotions, for acceptance into college, for good health etc... *sigh* What an idiot I was! Hoarding what God had given me thinking it was 'too much', meanwhile He's doing the same and more for people who I had wrongly judged. Shame on me!
I don't jump up in church every Sunday now, but what I learnt from that day was to not be selfish with my praise and thanks to God for His blessings towards me. No matter how little (or big) I might think it is, He is worthy of ALL praise! So today, I just want to say THANK YOU Lord for giving me a job! Today makes it one year since I started working here. I interviewed for this job Dec. 2010 (a week before I graduated) but didn't get it because I was going to be away in Nigeria all of January. They hired someone else, and I came back from Nigeria and was looking elsewhere...then they called me back mid February when a second opening came up. I didn't have the experience, but they trained me on the job.
I have friends who I graduated with who still can't find jobs...and it breaks my heart! But I keep believing that their testimony will come; but I've run out of words of encouragement for them and all I can do is pray, and pray that they don't give up on themselves.
Lord, words cannot express how grateful I am for ALL that you do and have done in my life. I am undeserving, but somehow your mercy seeks me out when I cower and hide, and you shower me with your grace from day to day. Father, we do not question you nor do we doubt you but we trust in your perfect timing! While we wait for that time I beg that you please give all those waiting on you for their testimony (jobs, good health, fruit of the womb, salvation, etc) the patience and strength to keep holding on and trusting you becos sometimes it ain't easy. But with you, we shall overcome in Jesus name. Amen.
Speaking of waiting for something...I've been waiting for something for about 3+ years, and tomorrow is D day. I'm trying not freak out, or be overly anxious because it's really out of my hands lol. I've done my part; crossed my t's, dotted my i's and now (just as its always been) it's in God's hands to finish what He has started. If When all goes as planned, it'll be a new phase in my life. :)
Neways, thanks for sharing in my thankful post today :) I appreciate, and look forward to sharing in yours! Have a wonderful day, and hope you enjoy this song it's one of my current favs!!!
