Thanks for making me feel like CRAP!

...*sigh* Mood swings go up and down like a freaking yo-yo
Few good days, few bad days
Snap! Snap! Snap! goes my temper. Over what?
The littlest things just set the damn thing off! 
Like a pair of shoes not properly placed...Snap!
A simple question being asked...Snap!
Having to clean up after someone...Snap!
Not hearing from him becos of shitty BBM service...Snap!
You get the picture? 


I really shouldn't be in this shitty yo-yo mood phase.
I mean I currently don't have any majors issues bothering me (I think)
You know how when everything is supposed to be great or just fine
The devil finds a way to just mess with you...stirring up drama where there shdn't be any
Why can't I just have that moment where everything's great!


*sigh* There's so much I wanna tell you (and you) but my overly conscious filter wont let me  vent the way I wanna
PS: That talk with you, I know it was supposed to help but...yeah it kinda did
Becos I finally got to hear all you had on your mind all this while
But now I feel like crap! Can't even look myself in the mirror...
Why did you wait this long to say all you had to say? You waited
Waited till I stripped myself bare, naked and vulnerable to my inner most core
We wined and dined in my secret place...a place free of judgement, cross-examination 
And just when I thought all was well and as close to perfect as it could be...
You set me up... placed me on the stand before the jury - yourself
To be judged and cross-examined *sigh*
And then you expect me to fight and defend myself...how?
How am I supposed to? With what strength? I am drained.
Emotionally. And this is worse than physical strength being taken away.


The irony is, you still want to wine and dine...like nothing happened. 
*sigh* I'm even too drained to finish typing this.
Principles. You ask me where my principles are? Hmmmm...lol
I'm not perfect, I make mistakes...and you do too, so where you get off coming to question my principles I don't know... Thing is, I keep my shut becos I hate having to apologize for my words...so rather than say what I really wanna say and then apologize later....I'll fall back....say this, lessons learned!